But last night it really hit me...

I'm not even a version of myself that I ever imagined.

And I'm making so many decisions to grow into the next version of myself.

So yeah the outward appearance does matter.

But damn I can take more time to appreciate what's on the inside 🥰

I feel the same way even though my trauma there was so great.

I love winter so much and they deserve to feel that joy 💜

Also there could easily be mods. There is one on the computer there just isn't cyberpunk mods on PS5.

As an example, Skyrim has them. Like just give me the mod for this you don't even need to actually update my game 😂

It's okay there still Judy which still does feel meaningful.

But damn when I tell you this feels too real... crushing on a girl that doesn't like other women...

F*ck that hurts lol.

Love this the Trevor Project is amazing 💜

Aww thank you 💜 it made such a difference for me. I don't know if anyone else that is trans feels this way but my body just knew. It made my body so much happier

Merry Christmas friend

Not that I'm saying I wish we were still together just still kinda grieving and being salty about the loss it's only been a year lol

My ex-wife was at the very least bi sexual but probably a lesbian. My transition made her run for the hills because she didn't want to do the inner work 🤦🏼‍♀️

People don't understand why I think they're insane when they assume I could now be into men.

Like bitch please women are incredible I could never. I've always both wanted to be with a woman and wanted to be them.

Just didn't know I also wanted to be them for so long...

Too good of a name to be wasted that sucks

Feel that. Somehow I got mine filled slightly early but it would still last through like April or something that wouldn't do much in the long run

Agreed people treat that shit as if one interpretation is the only one. Like I'm going to sound judgy for this but that shows a certain level of spirituality and it's not at the level they are hoping for

Sorry that was totally on me I f*cked up

Damn sorry you went through similar types of shit friend. I started HRT 3 months after she left but I'm also very decisive and I was ready to start it months earlier. I was happy to move on quickly.

For sure. A secret Santa at work was the best example for me this year. I got some "girl gifts" that I probably would have gotten as a teenager for Christmas and it warmed my heart so much because I didn't know I was missing out on that experience

Like I know it's adding fuel to the fire to say this but are you a "real" lesbian if you struggle to understand how we are lesbians too and how we love women, interact with the world, and engage politically (ideally) so similarly?