i’m still here. still trying to love through it. still asking the big questions. still exhausted by this ancient soul of mine that sees everything. but i’m here.

this isn’t me giving up. this is me witnessing. feeling. processing what it means to be human right now. it’s a lens, not a conclusion.

some people don’t make it out. they leave because it’s too much. and that truth sticks to me. makes me want to say the heavy things out loud, even if it’s not poetic or shiny or fixed.

i don’t want to scroll anymore. i keep saying that. but this place—it used to feel like home. LiveJournal, MySpace… connection before the algorithms. now it’s an ocean of grief i keep drinking from.

the more i learn, the more i realize: there was never a “good old days.” just illusions. and as a mom? the fear is feral. i think about what kind of world my daughter’s growing up in. what could hurt her. silence her. erase her.

i see you. i am you. every scroll is another punch. every headline feels like a dare to care less. and i’m tired of pretending that “focusing on the positive” is enough. the world feels sick. the stats. the systems. the hate. humans are terrifying sometimes.

being sensitive in a time like this is a brutal kind of resilience. you feel it all. you break, you patch up, you break again. i’ve clawed my way out of the void before—but right now it’s loud in here. if you’ve ever felt like a grain of salt in a hurricane: same.

Every scroll feels like a dare to care less.
And I’m tired of pretending that “focusing on the positive” is enough.
The world feels sick.
The stats. The systems. The hate.
Humans aren’t just imperfect—we're terrifying, sometimes.
And the more I learn, I realize:
There was never a “good old days.”

Being sensitive in a time like this is a brutal kind of resilience.
You feel it all.
You break, you patch up, you break again.
I’ve clawed my way out of the void before—but right now it’s loud in here.
If you’ve ever felt like a grain of salt in a hurricane: same.
I see you. I am you.

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Her name is Pepper 🖤🌌 #catsofbluesky

It is! I have an A5 and a personal ☺️

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Hope this brings back nostalgia for you 🖤🫰