and its been that way with drawing for years now. i feel like im screaming at myself JUST DO IT JUST PICK UP A PENCIL and its like the concept of it feels too heavy to hold. cant even force myself to enjoy being alive lately what do i even do

its a shame cause the guy i did the trial with was great. he was real, but not mean. the manager made me feel so bad tho like it was a sales tactic but that shit doesnt work on me and if i eventually can afford such a service i'll get it elsewhere lol

actually sucks to finally join a gym after hesitation from being judged only to be judged on the very first day by someone tryna sell me something and i couldn't stress enough that i would love to but the price is an entire paycheck which isnt even enough to cover my rent, like!

i do feel much better now, thank you! 💛

aah yeah i remember taking screencaps for you sometimes. its kinda surprising that some ppl are only realizing now what a pos they can be cause that wasnt even the only crappy thing they did to deliberately upset fans back in the day