great my dad said he’ll take me to youth group… as he doesn’t take me to youth group. you could’ve let me go to my aunts so I’d actually get there first *the most important day there*, but no. I get no food, no youth group, and now I feel as shitty as ever so thanks for that

Anyways ignoring that. I finally told my mom something that bothers me and something I’d like if she let me do instead of said thing and she immediately uses it against me this is why the doctor found out I hurt myself before you did. Sorry for no commas

I like how I spent the whole summer without the pc I own even though I did nothing wrong. And I still don’t have it. Because my dad’s using it for his guitar. Ok. Like just borrow it.

I kinda didn’t realize how anxious I was until now, I love talking to people but I’m so nervous I’m gonna say something wrong and they explode my pancakes with mind. Oughh

I don’t wanna do my laundry I don’t wanna take care of myself I don’t wanna play a game and I don’t want to watch tv so now im just sitting here thinking and procrastinating about everything I want yet don’t want to do

If I ever do something, even if you’re an adult, if you ever use a snarky tone on me unironically. You can actually go die, never talk to me again, I literally don’t care if I’m overreacting you’re not gonna act like I’m less than you because you’re actually not

People make me wanna hurt myself more it was a mistake to talk to anyone

Sonic music to stop myself from hurting myself 💜 can you feel the sunshine yeah yeah yeah

Yeah

so I go to an appointment 👍 they give me a list most likely looking for signs of depression 👍 I thought it’d be private for me 👍 nooo they have to list everything out for my parents like come on I wanted to throw up that whole time. I might be getting therapy now at least. Maybe

I woke up this morning to a dream of someone as Barbara from Batman and fucking asked them if they wanted to play Batman again 💔 dude Batman isn’t remotely multiplayer 🥀 you freaking idiot

can’t tell if my friends are my friends or if I’m just putting on an act for them. What do you call this? like I seriously cannot tell if I’m being myself or not, I have too many different personalities for too many different people and it’s making me so stressed.

My knees hurt so much every freaking day and I can’t tell if it’s normal

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