I think in some dark little part of his soul he knows that - and he's still selling out his community in a desperate attempt to buy himself safety and respectability.

Agreed, also I just feel like it's not true? Dudebro types insinuate such things constantly about each other. It's probably just some petty power bullshit they were flexing on each other.

One of the most comforting thoughts I've heard is from Welcome to Night Vale - "Death is only the end if you think the story is about you"

These dudes never got over an understandable fear, never learned to really look it in the eye and understand it.

Exactly - and the grief isn't going to fade over time if people never accept and process what happened.

The fact that techbros seem to think that's all we are is one of the most damning things about them. Nobody to them is real. Nobody is anything more than a reflection of themselves.

The idea that a jumped up phone autofill could be the people I lost is beyond insulting. We are not, we can not be, nothing more than a stochastic response network tuned to "yes-and" everything said to us.

This? This isn't okay. This is just speaking to shadows on the wall thinking that we're talking to a lost parent, a friend that lost a fight with disease. This isn't accepting that death comes for everything and everyone, including us.

Me with wolves tbh

Oh.

:)

Have fun.

Sounds like the book had a normal effect on you.

"THE LAWS OF GOD AND MAN MEAN NOTHING TO ME, WHEN I SEE A FUTURE IT IS BUILT ON THE ASHES OF THIS INIQUITOUS NOW"

"Haha! Girl dinner" [Three cured meats and a half bottle of hot sauce]

"I HAVE TRANSCENDED THE NATURAL ORDER. THE CHAINS OF CREATION NO LONGER BIND ME, FOR I AM MY OWN MASTER IN THIS WORLD. DENY ME ALL YOU WANT, YOU CANNOT ERASE ME!"

"...me eepy"

... arrrRF

"Okay but Ahamkara CAN speak"
"Oh, no I trained this one to bark."
Ahamkara: [Heyna whoop]