yeah its just i really regret realizing everything late and I already did some stuffs im not proud of especially the damage I did to myself too, but I am hopeful.

im a work in progress but i do hope someday i can accept the things the way they are, i just have too much regret and guilt with they way how I let myself be entitled to the trauma and pain that I also have hurt people

the relationships i have with people and family. I can say that I made genuine relationships through those years, but cant help and be afraid that what I used to be would ruin those efforts I made to build myself back up. Therapy and meds has helped me a lot-

Thinking no one really cares whatever happened to me so I acted with no thoughts and consideration at all and I can say that ruined my life. But thinking after almost six years I really tried to break out of my unhealthy coping mechanisms and start fixing myself and -

u good ?

are u okay ?

waiting !!!

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