Lord I thank you for giving this person fibromyalgia so bad they miss half the shit she thinks is important

Thought it was different but yep it’s the same as it ever was. You’re gonna have to make a choice one day and you’re gonna make the choice closest to you. As is expected, wonder if my friendship will last me moving out? Who knows

Probably just some paranoia from my ocd anyways, right? Maybe, but who’s to say? I’ve always had a good read on people

To add to this the new girl you’re with gives me very bad vibes there’s something up with her and I know it. I can’t wait to be proven right. The way she talks to her mother and vice versa tells me there’s some deeper going on

issues man, I get attached and obsess over others just cause I was shown basic kindness. So many people that have absolutely forgotten me whom I still think about to this day. Gah I hate myself. I’m fucking rambling. TLDR: I hate my attachment issues

, I feel like I’m not a good person or selfish for having what I have. The other person I felt truly understood me has grown distant and feels as if she’s growing more distant by the second. I don’t know if it’s jealousy or just me being worried about being tossed aside again. I hate my attachment-

what others see in me. Do they pity me and feel bad or do they actually wanna be my friends? There’s only one person I feel is truly my friend since she’s been through hell and back with me but I feel guilty and as if I haven’t been there for her in the same way. I feel unworthy of someone like that

annoyances to everyone else around me. I wish I was an outgoing normal person I wouldn’t suffer as much as I do now. I feel I should go all out and not care but I’ve been masking for so long I don’t know who I actually am. Idk if I make others uncomfortable or if I come off too strong. I wish I saw-

God I wish I didn’t have OCD so I could move on as quickly as she has. I need to put myself out there more too. I wish my friends lived closer to me, I probably wouldn’t spiral as much as I do if they were closer to me. I wish I didn’t hate myself so much to the point I think basic conversations are

jealousy? I can’t even say. Guess I’ll fill the void your calls have left with Kurage, Lego, and porn. God if this is what living alone is like I hate it.

Same, you’re out there talking with somebody. She rubs me the wrong way but I won’t say it cause you’re not gonna believe me. The line you said about her being an empath set off a lot of alarms in my head. I feel like she’s bad for you. But I don’t know if that’s actually me being worried or just-