But yeah. I miss them so bad. To the point I derailed this thread to talk about them instead of how my family had a messy ass eviction from the motel and we been bumming with my uncle

Im not even a little bit jealous of them though, Im truly happy for them. And a lot disappointed in myself. My problems and drawbacks are my own I wouldnt blame it on them.

I miss them a lot though, I hope college is treating them well and theyre doing alright. Its a little funny cos I seemed so promising in school but now here I am a neet while my best friends in college pursuing their passions.

It really sucks cos I miss them but I really dont know how to start talking to them again. Like. How do you approach your best friend of 8 years after ghosting them for 2? It just feels unfair to them. And then when I think about how they probably hate me it makes it even harder. I truly dont know

I havent actually talked to them since I left. minus maybe one quick text convo. I truly feel like they hate me and theyre the type of person who would never say that to my face so. I just decided to stop talking to them

What really makes me sad is that by the time I left my best friends house, I felt like they hated me, cos they hate sharing a room and we started getting distant cos of it.

And then when I graduated, I had to start packing to move to my moms motel room, so theres again that technically homeless thing...

And after that I stayed with my best friend and their family. Super nice people, except maybe their dad and his mom. Hes a teeny bit of an immature bum and his moms jusy the whole shebang of white grandmas you dont wanna be talking to