All i can do just pray for all those people will be very happy and having a great life now, and I hope we never meet again because I will ruin their life again. But not gonna lie, I miss them and maybe I still care about them
I'm sorry for ruin everything in your life guys

As a human, Im not really value myself because I feel I'm not a good person as I thought back then, I'm a horrible person. I feel more horrible because I think that I should go back to the time when I was young and fix everything. But I cannot do that

And I start to realize that people reacting so cold to me because I was cold to them first, because I always think that I'm the center of the attention and nobody understand me well. But at the same time, I realized it was because of their personalities and start questioning again about my value