A neet that does nothing but be on the computer all day. Struggling to get through anything without a job, insurance or anything.

I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. And screaming on the internet is going to do absolutely nothing.

I'm sorry.

At least I will have a month to spend, in 8 days. where I can at least feel okay, happy and like I'm doing something.

Having no irl social life sucks. Not to short the friendships I have now, I love and appreciate everyone so much. It's just...hard to be quite literally STUCK.

I feel like a mess.

Being there is home. It's where I feel safe and can be happy with anything and everything cause I have my partner and it's..home.

Being in the States? I rot in bed and just...am not okay most days. Which isn't okay. Unmedicated and just struggling overall. And it sucks.

If anyone truly needs me to be active, I'll be there. Or at least try to be at my best capacity of doing so.

It's the point of the year, outside of upcoming things (Ireland trip namely) where I struggle and know that I struggle. Which is one reason why I'm going transatlantic for a month tbqh....