all that to say new fic out now I'm one chapter away from posting the whole thing. sorry for the lock out AI is a nightmare. archiveofourown.org/...
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anyways I told my sister-in-law that I am like weirdly afraid to say I have rsd which is classic because I'm even rejecting the obvious signs that this is a disproportionate response, and the that person doing the rejecting is ME. Logic knows it's me, but the rest of me is shaking like a leaf
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yet I'm still like I'M SO SORRY YOU HAVE TO READ THIS AAHHHHH I'LL MAKE IT QUICK I PROMISE
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like I keep thinking "oh god they don't want to hear my excuses" "they don't want to read it anyways why bother" "oh thank god I have an excuse not to torture anyone with my ideas" when I'm in a big bang? people SPECIFICALLY chose to collaborate WITH ME on THIS IDEA
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now I'm on the writer side of that, like "sorry for the continued delays, my son is in the hospital with heart failure awaiting a transplant" and I hate the way it kicks up the RSD I don't even want to admit that I have.
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Like yes PLEASE I’d love to feel better but also that voice in my head that’s just like jingling a jester hat at me the whole time
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anyway happy Thursday I guess this is what I get for a) choosing to be honest with my 6 yr olds and b) pissing off my gym teacher that bad
5/5

....I explained to Mayday that I was a cranky high schooler in part bc the day before orientation the boy who is now her dad moved to New Jersey and that happened because his dad, her grampy, had lost his job, which was a direct result of 9/11 ("what's 9/11?" "Why did that happen?")
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And because she's a classic "why" kid, she kept asking why questions, and I had to follow the trail: I *met* one of my now best friends the first day of gym class where we formed an alliance of "not gonna do that" and only passed bc our gym teacher never wanted to see us again...
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*accidentally in that the conversation started when I picked her up early from school for a therapy appointment, and I nabbed her right before gym, and when I said "you're welcome" she said "what, why? I like Gym" and I was like oh boy did I hate gym in high school.
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