Tanggap ko naman na hindi ko na siya makikita. :-( It's not like he'll ever go out of his way for me naman. Sino ba naman ako? lol

And part of my healing process is roasting him every now and then. Coz why not?

I understand healing isn't linear so I won't be hard on myself. I won't gaslight myself anymore.

I'm just naturally attuned to numbers. That's all. That's all. Fuck.