#Bettelful #JosuijiArt #merchzader

And here are my three faves. I need more room since I want to use those desk light somewhere... My own desk are full enough as is sadly with things.... v__v; *Sighs.*

#OctaBUYo #GBArt #JurasickArt

Not this time... Didn't get Bettel or Ruze and got too many of Jurard... If anyone going to cons in the west coast in 2026, when to trade Jurard for Bettle/Ruze with me maybe....?

#WorkofAlt #artxel #oshihakkatsu #FlayonsCrayons

Normally, I'm pretty good with these gacha/blank bag things, getting at least one of everyone but...

#holoTEMPUS #holoARMIS

2/2 so much at the time. Also doesn't help I have three faves in Holostars... Getting things with them add up a lot... >__>;;;

@chillysartwork.bsky.social did this amazing art of me with my beloved Void Bat Kitty, Arcturus. This is too cute for words. I just can't! Thank you so much, Chilly. 🖤

@chloesenzai.bsky.social did this wonderful art of me with my sweet Angel Kitty, Pollux. She did great with making him look like a true angel. He's too pure to be with the evil that is me. Thank you, Chloe! 🤍

@marshtheangryfrog.bsky.social did this wonderful art of me with my lovely Evil Queen, Grimhilde (Little Lady). As you can see, she's not happy you are bugging us. Thank you, Marash. 💜

I'm just better off being alone.... To never been seen really. So that is what I'm going to do now.... Go back to enjoying the things I like by myself in the darkness where I'm feel safe to be the monster I am inside. Thank you for allowing me to be part of whatever this way.

With my faves, it fine they aren't my friends.... They shouldn't be.... They're just there to entertain me, that is all. As for everyone else, well.... That more have to do with me since I been hurt some many time by both peoples I saw as friends and my own family to what to try.

I'm sure no one is going to care or even read this. Why would you... As Ruze said a few time before when he started as part of Holostar, we're not friends... He's not my friend... I'm not his friend.... I'm not friends with all of my other faves. I'm not friends with another here

Turning 40 was something I never wanted... Hell, I didn't even wanted to see myself turn 18.... And as much as I enjoy Rosco, Zander, all my other fave, but mostly Ruze, it just better if I just stop showing up in their chat room. I still wish to support, I just do it from afar.

But I can't live for the now anymore... And dealing with Everglow and Ruze's b-day just show me how much I really don't belong. It also doesn't help that I'm dealing with so much in my real force existence that making me wish I try harder to end myself as a teenage girl...

I just have my walls up for too long, been hurt too many time for me to be part of anything... I mean, feeling like an outsider isn't a new thing for me. I always felt like I'm outside looking in to everyone from the start. I could only ignore that cause I was just living for now

Art done by @kitsunemob.bsky.social
(You did amazing with this piece!)

Being alone is all she want right now, for the voices to stop and her tears to end. But for him, walking away is not an option. Sensing her pain, he sit close behind her. Watching, waiting, showing that he care.

Art done by innashii1: x.com/innashii1
(Thank you so much for the art!)

They may hate each other but when trouble is calling, they have each other back. He may be such a pain but he sure is handle with those daggers. She may be some old magic user but those fireball sure are nice in a pinch.