Trying to figure all of this out!
I just feel alone. Feel like no one cares. No one would miss me if I were gone except family.
I don't really have friends.
No one has reached out to me today. No one has checked on me. Nothing.
And I know that it's not anyone's job to. I know people have lives.
I just feel alone. Feel like no one cares. No one would miss me if I were gone except family.
I don't really have friends.
No one has reached out to me today. No one has checked on me. Nothing.
And I know that it's not anyone's job to. I know people have lives.
Let's have some 𝗕𝗜𝗥𝗕 𝗦𝗡𝗔𝗖𝗞𝗦 𝗕𝗘𝗙𝗢𝗥𝗘 𝗪𝗘 𝗖𝗢𝗡𝗧𝗜𝗡𝗨𝗘𝗗 𝗢𝗡 𝗕𝗨𝗡 𝗛𝗨𝗡𝗧𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝟮 (𝟭𝟮.𝟭𝟮.𝟮𝟱)! What could possibly go wrong, eh, Hank?! 🐦
Let's have some 𝗕𝗜𝗥𝗕 𝗦𝗡𝗔𝗖𝗞𝗦 𝗕𝗘𝗙𝗢𝗥𝗘 𝗪𝗘 𝗖𝗢𝗡𝗧𝗜𝗡𝗨𝗘𝗗 𝗢𝗡 𝗕𝗨𝗡 𝗛𝗨𝗡𝗧𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝟮 (𝟭𝟮.𝟭𝟮.𝟮𝟱)! What could possibly go wrong, eh, Hank?! 🐦
I'm not necessarily depressed, but nothing is giving me joy either?
I used to watch YouTube but now that's just kinda meh, there aren't any sort of games that have my attention, no shows to watch
Just kinda
Existing
I'm not necessarily depressed, but nothing is giving me joy either?
I used to watch YouTube but now that's just kinda meh, there aren't any sort of games that have my attention, no shows to watch
Just kinda
Existing
support*
support*
And there's nothing I can do to fix it or help
And there's nothing I can do to fix it or help
It was hard. It was a lot.
I still haven't gotten it all out and the next few days are going to be rough with finding the new normal
And even that will take some time cause my Aunt is staying the rest of the month with my grandmother so she won't 100% be alone
It was hard. It was a lot.
I still haven't gotten it all out and the next few days are going to be rough with finding the new normal
And even that will take some time cause my Aunt is staying the rest of the month with my grandmother so she won't 100% be alone
Seeing him in the casket hurt like hell, but somehow it helped.
Still a very long road ahead, still sobbed today and will be sobbing tomorrow
And the next day and the day after that
This new normal is going to suck
Seeing him in the casket hurt like hell, but somehow it helped.
Still a very long road ahead, still sobbed today and will be sobbing tomorrow
And the next day and the day after that
This new normal is going to suck
Tonight is visitation and is gonna be a lot
Fuck this all hurts
Tonight is visitation and is gonna be a lot
Fuck this all hurts
Mom is now talking to her because she said she was just not going to come because she didnt want to cause drama but also couldnt sit with me and the family and pretend like things were fine where they're not and I don't blame her or want her to
Big stress mess
Mom is now talking to her because she said she was just not going to come because she didnt want to cause drama but also couldnt sit with me and the family and pretend like things were fine where they're not and I don't blame her or want her to
Big stress mess
I'm freaking out and outside and don't know how to calm down my beating heart
I have to call you soon and have this talk
It has to be tonight
I'm freaking out and outside and don't know how to calm down my beating heart
I have to call you soon and have this talk
It has to be tonight
What do I even say to you?
How do I say it?
"Thank you for still coming to the funeral, yes I ruined you and you wanna sit by yourself, but my mom and grandmother want you sitting beside me or not there at all thanks bye"
I know you don't wanna play the part of a facade
What do I even say to you?
How do I say it?
"Thank you for still coming to the funeral, yes I ruined you and you wanna sit by yourself, but my mom and grandmother want you sitting beside me or not there at all thanks bye"
I know you don't wanna play the part of a facade
When I die I'll die alone
When I die I'll die alone
Or am I simply a miniscule blip on their radar?
A tiny notification that, once gone, is easily forgotten and never given a second thought?
Does anyone care about me?
Or am I simply a miniscule blip on their radar?
A tiny notification that, once gone, is easily forgotten and never given a second thought?
Does anyone care about me?
I can't help them I can't help myself I can't help anyone
I can't help them I can't help myself I can't help anyone
I can't find a job, all forms of relationships and friendships are falling apart because of my actions
I'm in an incredible amount of debt because I went to college all for a piece of paper I'm not even using
Ugh
I can't find a job, all forms of relationships and friendships are falling apart because of my actions
I'm in an incredible amount of debt because I went to college all for a piece of paper I'm not even using
Ugh
Visitation is Thursday and funeral is Friday
Just let me go back to sleep where he's still alive
Visitation is Thursday and funeral is Friday
Just let me go back to sleep where he's still alive
It feels like I've woken up in an alternate reality where everything is bad and wrong and how it's all my fault and there's no way to fix it or go back and I'm trapped in endless suffering
I wish I could go back a year and fix it all
It feels like I've woken up in an alternate reality where everything is bad and wrong and how it's all my fault and there's no way to fix it or go back and I'm trapped in endless suffering
I wish I could go back a year and fix it all