Wizard Catnap
@wiznap.bsky.social
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-16 DNI
-16 DNI
i didnt regret writing? is it becsuse of how vulnerable i feel? i giess.. but...
nevermind
nevermind
January 10, 2025 at 6:55 PM
i didnt regret writing? is it becsuse of how vulnerable i feel? i giess.. but...
nevermind
nevermind
i dont want pity... Especially through text, i already feel small enough... i just eish i had someone here but i dont
no one.
nothing... only myself and my thoughts... but why... i dont get it.... am i even making sense anymore? dunno, but does that really matter..? Why is this thread the only thing
no one.
nothing... only myself and my thoughts... but why... i dont get it.... am i even making sense anymore? dunno, but does that really matter..? Why is this thread the only thing
January 10, 2025 at 6:55 PM
i dont want pity... Especially through text, i already feel small enough... i just eish i had someone here but i dont
no one.
nothing... only myself and my thoughts... but why... i dont get it.... am i even making sense anymore? dunno, but does that really matter..? Why is this thread the only thing
no one.
nothing... only myself and my thoughts... but why... i dont get it.... am i even making sense anymore? dunno, but does that really matter..? Why is this thread the only thing
how long will this thread go on for..?
January 10, 2025 at 6:51 PM
how long will this thread go on for..?
But
its not... ive long realized that its not and it wont be anytime soon because of everything, im unlovable and undeserving of love. please dont love me, please. Dont torture yourself by loving someone who cant love themselves.
its not... ive long realized that its not and it wont be anytime soon because of everything, im unlovable and undeserving of love. please dont love me, please. Dont torture yourself by loving someone who cant love themselves.
January 10, 2025 at 6:50 PM
But
its not... ive long realized that its not and it wont be anytime soon because of everything, im unlovable and undeserving of love. please dont love me, please. Dont torture yourself by loving someone who cant love themselves.
its not... ive long realized that its not and it wont be anytime soon because of everything, im unlovable and undeserving of love. please dont love me, please. Dont torture yourself by loving someone who cant love themselves.
Why am i so selfish and cant see other having fun with their friends
why am i so overposessive over them
why can't i just leave them alone
why do they have to put up with me? i hate all of this
i hate me... You dont need to he my friend
just please hold me... i need someone to tell me its ok
why am i so overposessive over them
why can't i just leave them alone
why do they have to put up with me? i hate all of this
i hate me... You dont need to he my friend
just please hold me... i need someone to tell me its ok
January 10, 2025 at 6:50 PM
Why am i so selfish and cant see other having fun with their friends
why am i so overposessive over them
why can't i just leave them alone
why do they have to put up with me? i hate all of this
i hate me... You dont need to he my friend
just please hold me... i need someone to tell me its ok
why am i so overposessive over them
why can't i just leave them alone
why do they have to put up with me? i hate all of this
i hate me... You dont need to he my friend
just please hold me... i need someone to tell me its ok
Whhy....aaaahhhhggg
plewasse..
just
anyone
please listen to me
dont leave me alone plesse
dont leave me
please dont leave me
i dont want to be alone
please
i cant
i cant
i
please
i depend
im not self sufficient like a lot of people are
please.... i need you
please
please
why...
why did you leave
plewasse..
just
anyone
please listen to me
dont leave me alone plesse
dont leave me
please dont leave me
i dont want to be alone
please
i cant
i cant
i
please
i depend
im not self sufficient like a lot of people are
please.... i need you
please
please
why...
why did you leave
January 10, 2025 at 6:48 PM
Whhy....aaaahhhhggg
plewasse..
just
anyone
please listen to me
dont leave me alone plesse
dont leave me
please dont leave me
i dont want to be alone
please
i cant
i cant
i
please
i depend
im not self sufficient like a lot of people are
please.... i need you
please
please
why...
why did you leave
plewasse..
just
anyone
please listen to me
dont leave me alone plesse
dont leave me
please dont leave me
i dont want to be alone
please
i cant
i cant
i
please
i depend
im not self sufficient like a lot of people are
please.... i need you
please
please
why...
why did you leave
I HATE MYSELF
I HATE EVERYTHING THAT IVE CREATEE
I HATE EVERYTHING
ALL OF IT
I WISH I COULD WIPE MYSELF OUT OF PEOPLE'S MEMORIES
SERIOUSLY
I WISH
I WISH
I HOPE
I WANT
I NEED
I CSNT
WHY
WHY CANT I DO IT
WHY
WHWWHY
WHWYWY6W
GW
GM
WH
GWY
WHY
GWY
HWLP ME
HELP
HELP ME
PLEASE
HELP
ME
PLEASE
PLEASE
I HATE EVERYTHING THAT IVE CREATEE
I HATE EVERYTHING
ALL OF IT
I WISH I COULD WIPE MYSELF OUT OF PEOPLE'S MEMORIES
SERIOUSLY
I WISH
I WISH
I HOPE
I WANT
I NEED
I CSNT
WHY
WHY CANT I DO IT
WHY
WHWWHY
WHWYWY6W
GW
GM
WH
GWY
WHY
GWY
HWLP ME
HELP
HELP ME
PLEASE
HELP
ME
PLEASE
PLEASE
January 10, 2025 at 6:44 PM
I HATE MYSELF
I HATE EVERYTHING THAT IVE CREATEE
I HATE EVERYTHING
ALL OF IT
I WISH I COULD WIPE MYSELF OUT OF PEOPLE'S MEMORIES
SERIOUSLY
I WISH
I WISH
I HOPE
I WANT
I NEED
I CSNT
WHY
WHY CANT I DO IT
WHY
WHWWHY
WHWYWY6W
GW
GM
WH
GWY
WHY
GWY
HWLP ME
HELP
HELP ME
PLEASE
HELP
ME
PLEASE
PLEASE
I HATE EVERYTHING THAT IVE CREATEE
I HATE EVERYTHING
ALL OF IT
I WISH I COULD WIPE MYSELF OUT OF PEOPLE'S MEMORIES
SERIOUSLY
I WISH
I WISH
I HOPE
I WANT
I NEED
I CSNT
WHY
WHY CANT I DO IT
WHY
WHWWHY
WHWYWY6W
GW
GM
WH
GWY
WHY
GWY
HWLP ME
HELP
HELP ME
PLEASE
HELP
ME
PLEASE
PLEASE
You were not.
My moment of inner peace had been distupted yet again, and he seems not to care...
Hm...
I wouldve already gotten used to it if it was more frewuent but the long intervals makes this all too unfamiliar
My moment of inner peace had been distupted yet again, and he seems not to care...
Hm...
I wouldve already gotten used to it if it was more frewuent but the long intervals makes this all too unfamiliar
January 10, 2025 at 6:44 PM
You were not.
My moment of inner peace had been distupted yet again, and he seems not to care...
Hm...
I wouldve already gotten used to it if it was more frewuent but the long intervals makes this all too unfamiliar
My moment of inner peace had been distupted yet again, and he seems not to care...
Hm...
I wouldve already gotten used to it if it was more frewuent but the long intervals makes this all too unfamiliar
WHY DID YOU DO IT
WHY DID UOU DO IT
WHY WHY WHYBWHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY
IT MAKES NO SENSE TO ME WHY SOMEONE WOULD DO THIS TO SOMEONE ELSE
I CANT FUCKING UNDERSTAND WHY
IS THIS A GAME TO YOU? NOW THAT THIS GENERATION OF PEOPLE IS LOST AND YOUVE HAD YOUT FUN WHAT WILLL TOU DO NOW??!?
WHY DID UOU DO IT
WHY WHY WHYBWHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY
IT MAKES NO SENSE TO ME WHY SOMEONE WOULD DO THIS TO SOMEONE ELSE
I CANT FUCKING UNDERSTAND WHY
IS THIS A GAME TO YOU? NOW THAT THIS GENERATION OF PEOPLE IS LOST AND YOUVE HAD YOUT FUN WHAT WILLL TOU DO NOW??!?
January 10, 2025 at 5:23 PM
WHY DID YOU DO IT
WHY DID UOU DO IT
WHY WHY WHYBWHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY
IT MAKES NO SENSE TO ME WHY SOMEONE WOULD DO THIS TO SOMEONE ELSE
I CANT FUCKING UNDERSTAND WHY
IS THIS A GAME TO YOU? NOW THAT THIS GENERATION OF PEOPLE IS LOST AND YOUVE HAD YOUT FUN WHAT WILLL TOU DO NOW??!?
WHY DID UOU DO IT
WHY WHY WHYBWHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY
IT MAKES NO SENSE TO ME WHY SOMEONE WOULD DO THIS TO SOMEONE ELSE
I CANT FUCKING UNDERSTAND WHY
IS THIS A GAME TO YOU? NOW THAT THIS GENERATION OF PEOPLE IS LOST AND YOUVE HAD YOUT FUN WHAT WILLL TOU DO NOW??!?
BORN?? WAS IT JUST TO SERVE AND OBEY TWO PEOPLE WHO WANTED A FREE MAID? CAUSE THATS HOW I FELT
OR DID ONE OF THEM WANT A MAID AND THE OTHER ONE WWNTED A TOY HE CPULDNPLAY WITH AND BREAK AT HIS OWN WILL
SEXUALLY DRIVEN AND MOTIVATED TO MAKE A CHILD FEEL DIRTY FOR THE REST OF ITS LIFE
OR DID ONE OF THEM WANT A MAID AND THE OTHER ONE WWNTED A TOY HE CPULDNPLAY WITH AND BREAK AT HIS OWN WILL
SEXUALLY DRIVEN AND MOTIVATED TO MAKE A CHILD FEEL DIRTY FOR THE REST OF ITS LIFE
January 10, 2025 at 5:23 PM
BORN?? WAS IT JUST TO SERVE AND OBEY TWO PEOPLE WHO WANTED A FREE MAID? CAUSE THATS HOW I FELT
OR DID ONE OF THEM WANT A MAID AND THE OTHER ONE WWNTED A TOY HE CPULDNPLAY WITH AND BREAK AT HIS OWN WILL
SEXUALLY DRIVEN AND MOTIVATED TO MAKE A CHILD FEEL DIRTY FOR THE REST OF ITS LIFE
OR DID ONE OF THEM WANT A MAID AND THE OTHER ONE WWNTED A TOY HE CPULDNPLAY WITH AND BREAK AT HIS OWN WILL
SEXUALLY DRIVEN AND MOTIVATED TO MAKE A CHILD FEEL DIRTY FOR THE REST OF ITS LIFE
TELL ME
CAN ANYBODY TELL ME WHY DO I HAVE TO GO THROUGH ALL OF THIS
I DONT GET IT
I DONT GET IT
I DONT GET IT
WHY DO I HAVE TO SUFFER IN SILENCE BECAUSE NO ONE IS ABLE TO HANDLE THE TRUTH OF MY SITUATION
IM A LOST CAUSE I HAVE NOTHING FOR THE FUTURE EXCEPT MY OWN FUNERAL
THIS
IS
NOT
OK
WHY WAS I
CAN ANYBODY TELL ME WHY DO I HAVE TO GO THROUGH ALL OF THIS
I DONT GET IT
I DONT GET IT
I DONT GET IT
WHY DO I HAVE TO SUFFER IN SILENCE BECAUSE NO ONE IS ABLE TO HANDLE THE TRUTH OF MY SITUATION
IM A LOST CAUSE I HAVE NOTHING FOR THE FUTURE EXCEPT MY OWN FUNERAL
THIS
IS
NOT
OK
WHY WAS I
January 10, 2025 at 5:23 PM
TELL ME
CAN ANYBODY TELL ME WHY DO I HAVE TO GO THROUGH ALL OF THIS
I DONT GET IT
I DONT GET IT
I DONT GET IT
WHY DO I HAVE TO SUFFER IN SILENCE BECAUSE NO ONE IS ABLE TO HANDLE THE TRUTH OF MY SITUATION
IM A LOST CAUSE I HAVE NOTHING FOR THE FUTURE EXCEPT MY OWN FUNERAL
THIS
IS
NOT
OK
WHY WAS I
CAN ANYBODY TELL ME WHY DO I HAVE TO GO THROUGH ALL OF THIS
I DONT GET IT
I DONT GET IT
I DONT GET IT
WHY DO I HAVE TO SUFFER IN SILENCE BECAUSE NO ONE IS ABLE TO HANDLE THE TRUTH OF MY SITUATION
IM A LOST CAUSE I HAVE NOTHING FOR THE FUTURE EXCEPT MY OWN FUNERAL
THIS
IS
NOT
OK
WHY WAS I
talk to someone about it? doesnt work. Therapist? Doesnt work. Longing my past self? Never... I just cant find a solution to my problems and i feel myself slipping away from control of my own self
Everything is not okay
nothing at all
Why am i like this
what DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS
Everything is not okay
nothing at all
Why am i like this
what DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS
January 10, 2025 at 5:23 PM
talk to someone about it? doesnt work. Therapist? Doesnt work. Longing my past self? Never... I just cant find a solution to my problems and i feel myself slipping away from control of my own self
Everything is not okay
nothing at all
Why am i like this
what DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS
Everything is not okay
nothing at all
Why am i like this
what DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS
Im scared.. please anyone... Is anyone here to listen? am i talking to walls? I dont know i dont know i dont know anything because i wasn't taught that, i don't know how to acknowledge and know anything
But im also far too self aware to not know
i know exactly what i went through
and
i
need
to
But im also far too self aware to not know
i know exactly what i went through
and
i
need
to
January 10, 2025 at 5:23 PM
Im scared.. please anyone... Is anyone here to listen? am i talking to walls? I dont know i dont know i dont know anything because i wasn't taught that, i don't know how to acknowledge and know anything
But im also far too self aware to not know
i know exactly what i went through
and
i
need
to
But im also far too self aware to not know
i know exactly what i went through
and
i
need
to
Is it a mess when there's nothing to make it a mess? Is anything real? Are my words real? am i real? i dont know... But this pain makes me feel real, and as much as i HATE it its the only thing that is keeping me stable enough... am i even stable? Whats the definition of stability? am i losing it
January 10, 2025 at 5:23 PM
Is it a mess when there's nothing to make it a mess? Is anything real? Are my words real? am i real? i dont know... But this pain makes me feel real, and as much as i HATE it its the only thing that is keeping me stable enough... am i even stable? Whats the definition of stability? am i losing it
and i am the only one who can help myself get better, but instead, im getting so much worse, its not even a matter of laughs like it was before, i have completely lost the ability to smile... I dont even know what genuine emotion feels like, its all a mess...
January 10, 2025 at 5:12 PM
and i am the only one who can help myself get better, but instead, im getting so much worse, its not even a matter of laughs like it was before, i have completely lost the ability to smile... I dont even know what genuine emotion feels like, its all a mess...
Ive noticed that i lost track of time ad it passes by, maybe itll get better once school starts but im not sure, ive just been so out of it and the things ive been going through doesn't help me at all, im out of the loop and lost... If i had anything to guide me but all i have is myself
January 10, 2025 at 5:12 PM
Ive noticed that i lost track of time ad it passes by, maybe itll get better once school starts but im not sure, ive just been so out of it and the things ive been going through doesn't help me at all, im out of the loop and lost... If i had anything to guide me but all i have is myself
Why cant i just be normal.. why am i weird... why am i like this i hate myself sometimes, i hate how i act i hate how i am i hate what i like, its disgusting and i hate myself for liking it why why why hwy i hate all of this.
December 28, 2024 at 2:32 AM
Why cant i just be normal.. why am i weird... why am i like this i hate myself sometimes, i hate how i act i hate how i am i hate what i like, its disgusting and i hate myself for liking it why why why hwy i hate all of this.
discard my own friends
i push them away
i fear that one day when i get attached to one of them ill be put through the same suffering ive endured for years now, so i dont wanna gets attached, but i just did, now im already practicinf for the dowfall, bracing for impact.
i push them away
i fear that one day when i get attached to one of them ill be put through the same suffering ive endured for years now, so i dont wanna gets attached, but i just did, now im already practicinf for the dowfall, bracing for impact.
December 27, 2024 at 6:10 AM
discard my own friends
i push them away
i fear that one day when i get attached to one of them ill be put through the same suffering ive endured for years now, so i dont wanna gets attached, but i just did, now im already practicinf for the dowfall, bracing for impact.
i push them away
i fear that one day when i get attached to one of them ill be put through the same suffering ive endured for years now, so i dont wanna gets attached, but i just did, now im already practicinf for the dowfall, bracing for impact.
what did i do wrong? i dont see anything wrong with it but... Why is this happening? please help me i dont wan to stay like this
well
i do want tk
it makes me who i am
but something feels amiss
i need a heart to heart with my oomf, i feel like im being discarded by people and that makes me
well
i do want tk
it makes me who i am
but something feels amiss
i need a heart to heart with my oomf, i feel like im being discarded by people and that makes me
December 27, 2024 at 6:10 AM
what did i do wrong? i dont see anything wrong with it but... Why is this happening? please help me i dont wan to stay like this
well
i do want tk
it makes me who i am
but something feels amiss
i need a heart to heart with my oomf, i feel like im being discarded by people and that makes me
well
i do want tk
it makes me who i am
but something feels amiss
i need a heart to heart with my oomf, i feel like im being discarded by people and that makes me