Therapist and social worker asked me what skills I have. What kind of work could I manage even a little of for pay?

Uh . . . I can put together fanvid playlists? Research the hell out of things? Babble in an annoying fashion on social media? I dunno. I got nothing.

It's a really fucked up system where if you make more than a certain amount you can't afford healthcare but to get free healthcare you have to be broke AF. Anyway. Medicaid for All is what we need or something even better. Instead we're going backwards.

I know it could be worse but good lord am I fucked if I lose Medicaid. Trying to live on $1,000/month is super fun let me tell you. (If I could get a job that paid me $20,000/year or less that would be ideal so I could keep Medicaid & not drain what money I have.)

I am lucky the house I'm in is paid for & I currently pay nothing for meds or healthcare. I'm lucky I inherited a little money. Trying to make that money last the rest of my life? LOL. Maybe I can make it last until I can get Kevin's social security? I dunno. Doubt I'll live that long anyway.

I think a lot about the money we've lost or wasted because of disability and being unable to cope. Subscriptions we didn't get canceled. Overdraft fees or similar. And all the stuff we're eligible for but we could never figure out how to get them because there are so many hurdles.

Hmm, the light was lit for a time later on too.