but like
- he is also still seeing someone he dated last year
- he always reassured me that it's okay if it takes time, if he was in a rush he could have told me since i was already constantly worried it may be too late

she made me feel like it may be my fault that he didn't fall for me due to
- taking too long to see him in person
- dragging my relationship chaos into normal boy's life

oh i don't know that one

I am not going to ask my roommate for benzodiazepine

same same same. or they're just too hard for me to find

I don't need to process it or survive it or get over it or anything

ah, teenage memories