I don't recognize the person in the mirror anymore, all I see is a shit excuse for a person, I see no hope and no will to keep moving, I see someone who has given up and wants it all to end, I see death looking over their shoulder

I have nothing anymore, bullet still exists in my life but it doesn't seem like that will last much longer either.. I have nothing and nobody, I am alone to struggle and my mental and physical have gone to shit because of my crippling depression.

I'm pathetic and miserable, bullet nor anyone else deserves to be around that, they didn't sign up for this so why do I put them all through it. Why can't I just function without craving more, why do i have to be so greedy in life, why can't I just be happy with what I have and accept it

they said they were cleaning and I just responded with "im posting on blue sky" like they care to know wtf Im doing. I fucking hate myself and my lack of ability to hold a conversation