Had a rough day today. Someone who claims they know me started yelling at me and telling me I took their parking spot again in an area that is public. I tried to question them, but they rolled up a magazine and tried to attack me until I made it into the store. Sigh.

While I was no Charlie Kirk fan, his assassination has the potential to spark more unrest and just make the world a more shitty place. My anxiety levels are sky rocketing. Time to bury my head in the sand and watch something to help me cope with it.

My life is nothing, but a shell of an existence. I spend too much of my free time buying and watching films while my life slowly passes by. One day I'll be dead, and what will I have done? Watched movies? I need to stop.

My therapist has told me that my schizophrenia might be getting worse, but I've dealt it with my head held up. Movies have been my outlet, but at the same time it's taking away meaning from everything. I have my online friends, but in reality my real friends are my discs. A flex or a concern?

Haven't been doing well recently. The voices in my head have been taking over and seeing strange things again. Having a mental disorder is a bitch.

I had a bizarre encounter today when an elderly man was looking at me, straight into my eyes. As if to to peer into my inner being to uncover all of the turmoil and grief. I walked away, but he remained vigilante and followed me. Eventually he vanished as if he was a simply a figment of my mind

The sun is up, the birds are chirping, and my shift is going well. I was thinking of selling a kidney for those in need, but that could potentially have ramifications in the future which might interfere with my movie collecting.

Will the trade war impact the price of my discs? I'd reasonably say it's a safe assumption. Yet, I'm cautiously optimistic some sort of solution will presents itself before prices sky rocket.

Had a rough day at work today. Started to have severe pain in my lower abdomen, so asked to be sent home early. Thankfully, my manager complied with my request. Now, I'm home, but with severe pain. Going to put on a movie to try and get my mind off the pain.

Hyped for Criterion's March 2025 slate. I think I've decided to buy most of the titles for the month. Now, I just need to tackle something from my unwatched pile to make my goal of 2,500 films this year. Self care be damned!

One of these two is a future GOAT, although after much deliberation I can't decide which one. For the time being, Barry has my attention a bit more.

My anxiety meds seem to be less effective with each passing day. Had a bunch of fever dreams last night and tried to cope with them as best I could. Thinking I'll watch some Digimon tonight to help or something a bit more somber. Starting to lose feeling with my left toe.

Can't relax and dreading tomorrow as my anxiety seems to be at an all time high for no apparent reason. Need to select a banger tonight to ease myself a bit. Do I go into uncharted territory and watch one from my recent VS haul, or do I go with something assured to please?

I do appreciate the maturity of bluesky over the
other site, and lets hope this doesn't become the drudgery that can be expected for online sites that pave the way for positive communication.

Planning on how to spend my money for 2025 has become increasingly frustrating. Do I invest in Deaf Crocodile and Radiance and rely on their curation of films? Or do I invest that money into myself and putting myself out there? A conundrum if there ever was one.

The bewilderment that is Luigi Mangione. Legend or mediocrity? Those eyebrows are magnificent though.

Had to leave the cesspool that is twitter. Life is a bit pointless right now, yet I really should be able to hit my goal of 2,500 films for the year. I can do it!