stupid dog is incapable of thinking of anything of any importance. it only knows what's happening to it right now. it can't think theoretically or existentially. it only knows right now. it only knows if it's bad or not, if what's happening is bad or not. stupid bad dog doesn't know anything.

so where do i go from here? how am i supposed to change anything? i don't want to be stuck in the same position i'm in for the rest of my life but i genuinely don't see a way out of here.

just for being myself but for now i want to do it for her and if that's what i need then that's okay as long as she'll put up with me. she deserves the best so i want to be better for her.

proud of you ben! i'm also autistic and have been thinking about going out walking more, this lovely picture has inspired me and maybe tomorrow i'll try to go for a stroll (: i definitely won't be walking 5 miles, that's impressive. keep enjoying nature and having a great time!

and now on his first day back he's basically abandoning his job and should be written up at the very least but bc the gm is his buddy he's getting off scot free. it's real annoying to me and i'm glad other people can see it despite none of us being able to change it rn

like he was hired and immediately put on closing 5 nights a week taking hours from people i know and that i know can do their jobs and his car just went out for over a month and we had to scramble to cover the shifts he was given (taken from other people btw significantly lowering their hours)

i also was in that dnd group for a hot second and i never liked him. he's a self centered know it all and he grates on me so im taking my small win that everyone else also thinks he's an asshole who's getting everything he wants handed to him at the moment bc that's what i'm seeing