lilith
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lilith
@weirdatdoom.bsky.social
· Mar 4
by the way, if you dont like what i post, feel free to unfollow me. i dont want people to stay following due to some perceived social pressure. i wont feel bad if you leave. id feel worse if you stayed and i didnt know why. my paranoia will do wonders with that.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA Is anyone else feeling like this today? Something in the air...
December 11, 2025 at 2:07 AM
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA Is anyone else feeling like this today? Something in the air...
i think the issue is that no one knows me fully- i present a little sliver to the subsets of people i know. this is fine, but i need someone who sees me completely, and loves me for all i am. the problem there, is this happened once, and that person fucking hates me now
October 1, 2025 at 1:23 AM
i think the issue is that no one knows me fully- i present a little sliver to the subsets of people i know. this is fine, but i need someone who sees me completely, and loves me for all i am. the problem there, is this happened once, and that person fucking hates me now
i have a friend who i deeply wronged- and we don't talk anymore. it came out of the blue at the time, and she left abruptly. i would have dreams with her in it regularly- and i still do. i hate it at first. it reminded me i was a bad person.
October 1, 2025 at 1:18 AM
i have a friend who i deeply wronged- and we don't talk anymore. it came out of the blue at the time, and she left abruptly. i would have dreams with her in it regularly- and i still do. i hate it at first. it reminded me i was a bad person.
i live in the electrical world, waiting for visitors. people have tea with me, then we dance in the snow of the clouds. back at my place, we look out the windows and watch the pixels fall.
we create a world in which this can last forever, then they leave me alone in here. and log back into reality,
we create a world in which this can last forever, then they leave me alone in here. and log back into reality,
September 22, 2025 at 8:36 PM
i live in the electrical world, waiting for visitors. people have tea with me, then we dance in the snow of the clouds. back at my place, we look out the windows and watch the pixels fall.
we create a world in which this can last forever, then they leave me alone in here. and log back into reality,
we create a world in which this can last forever, then they leave me alone in here. and log back into reality,
theyre putting me up- not down. instead of killing me to reduce misery, theyre making me unkillable to increase it. ill live forever, and if i ever get happier they'll find me again and make me feel like im living longer
September 22, 2025 at 8:31 PM
theyre putting me up- not down. instead of killing me to reduce misery, theyre making me unkillable to increase it. ill live forever, and if i ever get happier they'll find me again and make me feel like im living longer
my goal is to keep saying exactly what im thinking until a catch the attention of an enamored psychologist looking to write a dissertation
September 22, 2025 at 8:28 PM
my goal is to keep saying exactly what im thinking until a catch the attention of an enamored psychologist looking to write a dissertation
i go to maternity wards and swap all the babies around. i walk around at night and unscrew the lightbulbs in the safety lamps. after the service workers clean the park i push all the trash outonto the freshly mowed grass. im a terrible person, and you can look me in the eye and shake my hand
September 22, 2025 at 8:10 PM
i go to maternity wards and swap all the babies around. i walk around at night and unscrew the lightbulbs in the safety lamps. after the service workers clean the park i push all the trash outonto the freshly mowed grass. im a terrible person, and you can look me in the eye and shake my hand
the guilt is still beating me and it seems im going in a different direction than numb. ill have to loop back around
to move on i must forgive myself. but i cant do that if she wont. so, i cant move on. not until the guilt has beat me numb
September 22, 2025 at 8:02 PM
the guilt is still beating me and it seems im going in a different direction than numb. ill have to loop back around
life is a grater and babey im da cheese
September 10, 2025 at 12:48 AM
life is a grater and babey im da cheese
in this world of paper, please be the wind. blow over the fire until the ash blots my eyes. rub the soot off my face and look at me like you love me as you twist the knife
September 10, 2025 at 12:43 AM
in this world of paper, please be the wind. blow over the fire until the ash blots my eyes. rub the soot off my face and look at me like you love me as you twist the knife
i love what i love, and i burn what i burn, and when i took you apart i began to yearn for what really makes this heart aching world turn.
September 10, 2025 at 12:38 AM
i love what i love, and i burn what i burn, and when i took you apart i began to yearn for what really makes this heart aching world turn.
its a zoo!
no i get that, but why such theatrics?
no no, they enjoy this. its enrichment.
but theyre in misery
the misery is enriching. they can appreciate the warm slurry better if they suffer elsewhere
no animal should live like this.
i agree. but, we cant stop them from hurting themselves
no i get that, but why such theatrics?
no no, they enjoy this. its enrichment.
but theyre in misery
the misery is enriching. they can appreciate the warm slurry better if they suffer elsewhere
no animal should live like this.
i agree. but, we cant stop them from hurting themselves
July 26, 2025 at 11:04 PM
its a zoo!
no i get that, but why such theatrics?
no no, they enjoy this. its enrichment.
but theyre in misery
the misery is enriching. they can appreciate the warm slurry better if they suffer elsewhere
no animal should live like this.
i agree. but, we cant stop them from hurting themselves
no i get that, but why such theatrics?
no no, they enjoy this. its enrichment.
but theyre in misery
the misery is enriching. they can appreciate the warm slurry better if they suffer elsewhere
no animal should live like this.
i agree. but, we cant stop them from hurting themselves
ah! no sir. dont call an ambulance- im quite alright. all im afflicted with is guilt, grief, suicidal thoughts, self harm, loneliness, bpd, schizophrenia and the torture that is being the smartest animal on the planet. unless you know a doctor that cant fix all that- put the phone down.
July 26, 2025 at 10:52 PM
ah! no sir. dont call an ambulance- im quite alright. all im afflicted with is guilt, grief, suicidal thoughts, self harm, loneliness, bpd, schizophrenia and the torture that is being the smartest animal on the planet. unless you know a doctor that cant fix all that- put the phone down.
everyday, for seven years, a brick is added to a plot. a house is constructed after a little while, and with every day it grows: little by little, brick by brick.
but one day, after a beautiful summer, the torrential rain arrives. the clouds had always been there, over the horizon
but one day, after a beautiful summer, the torrential rain arrives. the clouds had always been there, over the horizon
July 26, 2025 at 10:47 PM
everyday, for seven years, a brick is added to a plot. a house is constructed after a little while, and with every day it grows: little by little, brick by brick.
but one day, after a beautiful summer, the torrential rain arrives. the clouds had always been there, over the horizon
but one day, after a beautiful summer, the torrential rain arrives. the clouds had always been there, over the horizon
i am at cocoba im havin the cinnamon hot chocolate
July 26, 2025 at 11:10 AM
i am at cocoba im havin the cinnamon hot chocolate
and i keep failing. every other night, i have to deal with the wretched sorrow moulding in my walls- so i message her. i break another boundary. its a symptom and an issue- im too weak
July 26, 2025 at 1:01 AM
and i keep failing. every other night, i have to deal with the wretched sorrow moulding in my walls- so i message her. i break another boundary. its a symptom and an issue- im too weak
finding new people, forming new connections isnt the issue. its that, out there in the world, is a person i care about, and i hurt her. out there is a wonderful person who ive injured
July 26, 2025 at 12:59 AM
finding new people, forming new connections isnt the issue. its that, out there in the world, is a person i care about, and i hurt her. out there is a wonderful person who ive injured
i miss you, and im hurting, what else is new. i ate something today, a chicken beef stew. i think i need to get out one of these days and try something new
July 26, 2025 at 12:57 AM
i miss you, and im hurting, what else is new. i ate something today, a chicken beef stew. i think i need to get out one of these days and try something new
i must find someone i love enough to eat burgers with. i have to.
i miss her so much my chest hurts. i wish i could stop dreaming about her but shes there, every night. and we're just hangin out. eatin burgers. i miss eating burgers with you
July 25, 2025 at 8:16 AM
i must find someone i love enough to eat burgers with. i have to.
look, its just really really fucking hard okay? and ill get through it, like i got through all the other trauma, but im going to come out the other side more mentally ill and worse. like all the other trauma. ill internalise im a terrible person, then move on with my life
i miss her so much my chest hurts. i wish i could stop dreaming about her but shes there, every night. and we're just hangin out. eatin burgers. i miss eating burgers with you
July 25, 2025 at 5:50 AM
look, its just really really fucking hard okay? and ill get through it, like i got through all the other trauma, but im going to come out the other side more mentally ill and worse. like all the other trauma. ill internalise im a terrible person, then move on with my life
i miss her so much my chest hurts. i wish i could stop dreaming about her but shes there, every night. and we're just hangin out. eatin burgers. i miss eating burgers with you
July 25, 2025 at 5:44 AM
i miss her so much my chest hurts. i wish i could stop dreaming about her but shes there, every night. and we're just hangin out. eatin burgers. i miss eating burgers with you
i need someone to love the broken me. the version of myself that has issues that hurt people. i need someone to love me, then they can love the me that comes out the other side too
July 24, 2025 at 10:28 AM
i need someone to love the broken me. the version of myself that has issues that hurt people. i need someone to love me, then they can love the me that comes out the other side too
the worst part is that i want to do it again. i enjoyed it. it was fun- and if i had the guts id do it again
May 30, 2025 at 6:14 PM
the worst part is that i want to do it again. i enjoyed it. it was fun- and if i had the guts id do it again
Reposted by lilith
chapter two is also out now. it has gotten slightly more transgender, and only up from here im afraid. the next chapters name is:
May 28, 2025 at 2:09 AM
chapter two is also out now. it has gotten slightly more transgender, and only up from here im afraid. the next chapters name is: