The *minute* I don’t do the work? I get yelled at by staff and management.

Thanks babe. I’m so tired of everyone around me here making money when I can’t make anything. I’m too busy picking up slack and doing all the behind the scenes stuff to take care of my own and it sucks

I still have mine for Taylor updates only. Really should just delete it though.

Thank you my friend. ❤️
The last couple years have definitely been a journey no one saw coming.

I almost forgot the just desserts!
About this time two years ago I was legit suicidal.

The people I was surrounded by and management at my employment was the source. So I left. Took a break, and went back to basics.

The one who made my life a living hell? Applied to work FOR me the other day.

In the words of Taylor Swift:
“I’ve built a legacy that you can’t undo, but when you count the scars there’s a moment of truth that there wouldn’t be this if there hadn’t been you.”

-that place before might have broke me, but I learned to build myself back up from it all because of it.

I left a job I loved because I knew I deserved better and wasn’t going to put up with shit anymore.
I found a company and place that feels like I’ve dreamt of my whole career.

Different styles, unique to each brand. We’re no different either. And all with an element of fine dining.

15 years. 10 restaurants. 3 bars. And at least 6 event and catering spaces. There’s only room to grow and grow up from this.

This one’s been around for about 15 years and just keeps growing. They started with 1 location, still going strong today. Shortly after another came along and it stayed that way for a while.
Just before Covid and especially after: the place I’m under now has opened 10 restaurants, all different.

But the payoff? Huge.
The way I’m able to navigate between work and play, to have a choice to take an hour a day, just for me? To focus, meditate, manifest, and really find a center… invaluable.

The 75-85 hours a week is where I drew the line and took back my mental health.

I know coming up there will be weeks like that again, but maybe not. We’re working dinners only. Six days a week. Closed the 7th.

It’s going to be busy, it’s been a lot and it’s just going to get harder.

About that self-worth thing.
We talked a couple days ago about a major company shift.

I loved the job I had before. Loved being close to home and local. What I didn’t love was the near daily berating that came from the owner. Or the way my direct boss always made me feel small and idiotic.

Next up:
Life.
Life has been giving a lot and learning my own self-worth in the process. I’ll dive into that in a moment.

We’re back to being single and that’s okay. I failed myself for staying, but it’s life lessons learned. Honestly I’m better for it. The right thing will come when it’s time.

Girlie you have no idea the night and day difference with this company compared to where I was six months ago, or even two years ago. So much better, so much more respect amongst everyone.

It’s been rough.
This week I’ve felt like a teacher to a new class and you know what? IT FELT GOOD

And here I thought “awesome i packed in 10 minutes and remembered everything!

Hahahahahaha

Portable charger? Plug for the computer? Tennis shoes?

All 600 miles away.