And so that point of certainty is never reached. And so the world keeps on going. And every small local problem is always somehow just a part of a bigger picture.
And most of the time I’m just too tired to think about it all.

Most of the time, it feels like everything is too big, and here I am, struggling to just put food on the table. How would I know what’s right and wrong? How would I know what needs to be fixed and how to fix it?

I think it’s been three years since I started feeling this way. I always set a goal for a certain point in the future: “Once this event happens, I’ll know what’s going on for sure. Then I’ll act on my plans. Then I’ll be able to make my life stable again. Or I’ll express my views out loud.”

P.S. I didn’t take a screenshot of my winter theme,but trust me when I say it was way more tasteful and much fewer colors were used (￣▽￣;)
P.P.S. And you bet KDE snow effects were in use!

We teach every kid to speak a language. Why wouldn’t we teach scientific method too. So that a tool for thinking would feel as natural to people as a tool for communicating

Science should not be presented like something exclusively for “nerds”. It should be something super common.

Yeah, I really wish more people understood that science is not another religion.
And I think that popular culture that likes to make stories about “super genius science dudes” who are apparently so special and genius that you don’t have to understand what they are saying really doesn’t help

Moral of the story: I guess it was a dumb idea to have my first day of work on February 14th
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And if you have any kind of bad job related experience ruining some holidays for you feel free to share your feelings here. It feels nice to get such a thing off you chest

I don’t think I’ve ever felt more alone on this day. And I feel this way just because I can’t let go of my stupid ass ambitions even after I gave up on actuality fulfilling those.

So now I’m officially that awful person who is in a relationship but cannot bring themselves to celebrate due to all of the bad memories and all of the hardships I’ve been through in my work life lately.

And a few days ago due to some personal stuff I have officially lost all hope for ever being happy with my career.

I remember that day two years ago: I was so exhausted I got in a nasty argument with my partner that evening. Back then I thought that was the worst St Valentine’s Day in my entire life