I know! I saw this morning and had to do a double take, like, "Excuse me? You're supposed to be dead."

I have! I meant to download just 700 vids, but it downloaded all, and I've lost it in the chaos of 4000 videos 🙃 It's gonna take a lot more organizing than I have time for

I'm saying this because my anger physically pains me, and I don't think I have a strong enough outlet atm. I never want to harm people ofc because I would be a monster, but it's just so easy for others to be one and that just makes me more mad that I have repercussions for my rage but not them HOW?

So it confuses me how I, as someone who struggles to manage the rage because I have so much love for others, that there are other people with more rage than myself that inact on it for themselves. Is hate truly that powerful? Does it not hurt to feel that much anger and worry about the aftermath?

Even when I was little and getting into physical fights, it wasn't cause I was the one getting picked on. It was my friends. But my compassion has stretched across the world. And it has both expanded my love for others and my rage for their injustice. So, at least I can say that I have a heart

But I've come to learn that the issue that I have, the anger that bubbles up to the point where I don't know what I will do next, it was never anger for myself. It was always for the compassion I had for others. It's probably why my friends appreciated my protectiveness

Since I was very little, I've dealt with anger issues. Something that isn't so one dimensional as it seems. For the past 8 or so years, it's been managed, repressed to the point that I can't even cross the threshold of vocalized anger-

More pics:

This island is !!UNFINISHED!! but as I have no interest in adding more, it's complete to me, and I'm happy with what I made. It was comforting to make this while enjoying the spooky season, but I really really really want to hop right into my very first winter island!

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