Is there a type of religious/ruling/cultural higherarchey where the woman is the hier by divine birthright and she grows up to choose, thru her divine connection and knowing, a man who she has determined would rule her people in an honorable, loving, empowering, and inspiring way?

I'm sorry I chose you as the catalyst to destroy myself with.

I self destructed.

And you were hit with the strapnal of the mask I've worn for my whole life.

I didn't want to be that girl anymore. But she she kept coming back.

I wanted to love you differently.

Ashamed. Enraged.

I killed her.