It's crazy to say I jinxed myself! But I have a gaming PC now!!

Right now the plan is the following:
Streaming on Tuesdays and Sundays
Record on Wednesdays and Thursdays
Edit on Fridays

Streaming is going to become more optional for me, but youtube I want to try new things.

It's a harder platform for engagement, but I haven't really ever cared for engagement. I want to be able to share my things I enjoy at my pace and have streaming on the side.

It's gonna take me a little while to get this shit figured out.

i dont know what the logic of me writing this is, kinda cringe im sure, but I just wanna remind myself of why I stream, why i do this, why i yap for 5-7 hours a day when im live.

might delete later but rn im weird headspace where i wanna yap

i dont want to ever be as popular as he was, but knowing he made such a cozy yet chaotic atmosphere was something i absolutely adored. I miss his content, its silly to say I grieve him but, man.

There was something about techn-'s streams (censored cause i dont want reach from his name) that just

id sit in dms with my other friend and yap about the stream as it was happening, and while he never really addressed the chat, I felt part of those streams, i miss those streams, streams that would be so impulsive and out of nowhere filled with SO much personality and its what I aspired for

but i also remember what I loved about watching other peoples streams too, the cozy environment where I could lurk and do my own thing but still feel like a part of the conversation

There was a streamer I used to watch ALL the time, he was the only streamer i'd religiously watch

all my VODs before I was VoxelPup are all still saved privately, back when i was Reddedstone, Mochis-Mocha, Koistellations, all of them are saved so I can look back and remember the good times and not the bad times

there was times I wanted to quit, streaming for 3 years does that, burn out is real

I think about it then i open up the program and then i get suddenly terrified of how much can be done LMAO

can't believe I'm banished for being a boy /silly /dramatic

Wait omg what game is this