(he’s pointing at the sign, not doing the salute himself 😭)

Flash forward to 2025, where I know it’s PTSD, you know it’s PTSD, my last therapist knew it was PTSD, my ASD diagnostician knew it was PTSD, my dead cats know it’s PTSD because they lived through it too.

Radio silence on getting reassessed. Because it’s just handing me a MedNeg lawsuit 💀

To this day, that’s still her definition. Now also bear in mind that I have AuDHD. Undiagnosed until my early to mid 20s. Misdiagnosed instead in my EARLY TEENS with Bipolar II & BPD (EUPD). I was on LITHIUM before I was 18. Unsurprisingly, none of the treatments really helped.

The only way I survived that period of my life was to find any semblance of control I possibly could. Over anything. The tiniest little thing, like the colour of my hair, the music I listened to, anything. Her definition of manipulation and control was my refusal to let her live through me.

She told my GP I was “manipulative and controlling” when I was 13. Bare in mind this woman is a narcissist and was abusing me, and I’d already been abused by my father & non-family members by this point. I was using ANYTHING vaguely sharp to cat-scratch myself multiple times daily. I was UNSTABLE.

I was telling him a lot of fucked up stuff. I was self harming and suicidal. He took a MASSIVE risk in telling my GP to keep that information from her, which means he didn’t believe what she was telling him & the psych. Which means he was the ONLY damn one who saw through her bullshit at the time.

Everyone should be concerned about how he’ll handle the Israeli genocide, or how he’ll handle Russia. He said he’ll end both conflicts regardless of who “wins”. This isn’t call of fucking duty.

When tragedy happens, it will always get the attention it deserves. I care about serious injustice, serious inhumanity. What I fear for the most right now isn’t domestic US policy, it’s that orange fuck on the global stage surrounded by yes men. He’s unimaginably dangerous, WWIII level dangerous.

We’re a sinking ship too, and my priority has to be where I live. I want to live in a country of harmony and peace, where all of this tension and hatred dies down, where people stop murdering and rioting because they’re racist or some kind of phobic. We need progression, but we too are regressing.

• Our so-called “free” healthcare has gone to shit, people are going into debt after being forced to go private for healthcare (sounds familiar, doesn’t it?)
• The government now wants to financially ruin disabled people with conditions they never asked for.
• The new living wage won’t help.

Over the last 14 years, the following things have happened here:

• Trans people became public enemy #1
• Poverty is so widespread that it’s become normal to go hungry (and cold in winter due to heat costs)
• Violence against women is a ‘national emergency’ (NPCC, 2024)
• Racism is out of control

But for the vast majority of US politics, I just don’t care. If it isn’t seriously harming or ending the lives of minority groups who didn’t ask for this man to be in charge, I have no reason to give it my attention.

Why?

Because my own country is FALLING. APART.

Now don’t get me wrong, I’m paying attention. I keep tabs on US politics for good reason, but rarely do I care on a domestic level what happens there unless it’s something absolutely inhumane. Y’know, like what happened with abortion access. That continues to be a pressing issue that needs voices.