The cats are doing well. My panic attacks and agoraphobia are getting better every day. I've got assets for streaming but I'm going to take that slow and priortize school.

I can still be reached on Discord and on my other account, if you know it. 💚

Wish I could have seen this last year! Certainly wouldn't have done anything that stupid. I've got a future.

I hope anyone reading this stuck in a familiar rut comes across the same hopes and joys and exciting new experiences that I have. It can come from unexpected places.

I have kept distance from my ex and will continue to do so. I am posting this in the interest of moving on with my life.

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I don't know what I'm ultimately going to do or what I possibly /can/ do in this situation. I've lost opportunities and lost friends that I can't responsibly interact with in public.
For that reason, I want to have this out, publicly, on record, to point to if it comes up.

Even then, under a new identity, I still feel like I'd be looking over my shoulder constantly. I don't think it's fair that I'd have to do that.

I dunno. It's been gnawing at me for months and I just don't know. 🤷

So do I just...delete all of this? Avoid everyone I ever met, even if they didn't have a problem with me? I dunno!

What's the handbook say to do in the situation where your ex has a platform and blasts personal things about your relationship with your dead mom to strangers? What do I do with that?

Would anything I make with this account and my attached discord blow up eventually? The number ID associated with my Disc was linked. I'd have to nuke it at this point.

I'm learning fundamentals of programming. I'm in college. I'll be making things again before too much longer.

That's kind of an honest question there.

It's been almost a year since I left home for the last time. Oct 22, I think? 23? Now Twitter is cratering. And I'm just building up here again? Do I nuke all of this? Do I finally say my piece? Who'd even listen? Would it be worth it?

So fundamentally I've been left wondering: What is the ethical thing to do here? I don't actually want my ex to be hurt. I'm very happy she's away from my various issues and able to start fresh with healthier relationships. I don't want to jeopardize that.

But...What do I do with what was said?

I never got to say my piece. I kept logs that might have helped me out but never released them because the giant Twitter mudslinging between two people never ends well for either party. It just escalates and you look like an asshole and make everyone really uncomfortable.

I was in a fundamentally broken, doomed relationship with a streamer for 14 years. It ended very ugly. I really hoped that it would not be brought into public because I knew I would just vanish. I'm a private person and losing that privacy is horrifying. I got some alarming messages from people.

Every time Elon Musk fucks up bluesky gets more diverse in its userbase so you should see fewer furry cocks over time!

It's just funny to me that out of all of the various tightknit communities that could have rapidly proliferated here, it was furries

It's hilarious to me. Back when Bluesky was invite only, you'd look at the top top feeds. The furry art feed was more populated than the regular art feed by a significant margin. Furry porn was in the top 10 biggest feeds