I'm just scared I'm putting all my love into this and what if it's not reciprocated they tell me it is but what if it's a lie...

the signs the patterns the signs the patterns

ofc and I fucking asked and made things worse but I do fucking worry that you love them more than me why why do I worry so much

"I don't wanna be a bad influence" yes I do, I want to get you so drunk your defenses lower and I can do anything I want to you. "no pressure" I want to press the can against your lips and tilt it up for you when you can barely hold it yourself you're so intoxicated you can't see straight.

but I'm also so tired of this I want to have my own identity but I'm a fucking failure

idk who I am anymore. Give me an identity please who do you see when you look at me? I can be anything, I promise. I just want to be the one You want to see.