the aftermath of the battle

there was also one time where i tasted tap water in everything even though there were none inside them (in which i have sensory problems with tap water and it made it impossible to eat & drink anything for a whole month)

this notification one surpass that in terms of annoyance

I really agree with this one. Also when we are in survival mode we tend to not process our feelings or "mute" them like you said. You may have a "sadness debt" as I would like to call that you couldn't process at the time but now that you are free and available, processing now.

my dearest 😭 love you so muchhh 💞🫂

i shall send you more voicemails heheheheh !! 👀