just scared. the future doesnt feel real at this point. it feels like it was put up for sale. i dont know how anyone is meant to get by if they dont have generational wealth to go off of. scared for my friends. scared

just paid $160 for my premium and its only going up next year yay! yay!! yay being in the us!!! yay!!!!

thats why im pushing so hsrd for everything like i genuinely dont know how safe my future is or any of my family’s future is when things are this expensive and just surviving through medicine costs what it does. idfk

its so very bleak that after my mother retires she wont have healthcare available even though she probably qualifies for disability, technically, too. im going to try to find a job with coverage for my family going forward after she does so she can be covered but jfc

i hold a part time job and i struggle with managing it and im gonna struggle eeven more when school is added on like. and we slip through the cracks and cant get benefits because maybe we do work part time but ughhhh this country Sucks why is there no partial help. why is there no anything

the ableism has been thrown at me just so that ive internalized just enough to really feel like i am not “disabled enough” to deserve help. i am.

just wild to not have it assumed that i’m lazy or lying or exaggerating.

i’d never be able to get all of it acknowledged probably. but it very certainly constitutes having a disability? i feel impaired by the stuff i have going on

its crazy to be acknowledged for the first time in my life as having problems that disable me despite not being able to recieve benefits (due to how autism alone is not enough to qualify if you can hold a job, whether it be part or full time.) its mental and physical for me and has been but

this feels eerie somehow along with the caption i love it

(FLASH WARNING) made these at age 11 this was my opus

i lied i have a few more

i wish i could get it back somehow. wayback machine has bits and pieces but not dms or my gallery

please stay safe im so sorry this is happening

wike maybe im being a little sensitive but ouchie!!!!!