this is kind of a rarity for me, especially since i've had so many goddamn migraines this year

uncomplicated stories aren't interesting! meaning is derived from struggle! there is no forgiveness without harm and no joy without sorrow! you cannot appreciate the light without knowing the dark! to exist without change is its own form of death! motherfucker!!

if you just do what you're told without question, you get ""the good ending"", and if you go just as hard the opposite way, you get someone flat, someone who's Something To Save and not really her own person

i know its like. yeah man its a disability for a reason. but i kinda dont like framing things that way to think about myself. you know?

maybe then itd feel more...idk. real or serious or justifiable to be fucked up all the time

ive also been going 'baby need smoko...' to myself every time i have to heal. it's the Let Me Get A Sippy Quickly

like you know damn well what you're fucking up on, but it's fine. We go again.