i dont remember everything obvs bc i woke up from this one at like 2 or 3 but all i remember is i was in a show with her where i had to dance across the length of the stage with her and we were both dressed as birds??? it was fuckin weird man

guess whos gonna br hyperfocused on this fruity ass witch show for next little bit lmao (and right before halloween? oh boy lol)

i still get thrown for a loop when i remember that she got aubrey plaza to live with her while they were filming the show and some of the stories theyve shared about that are also wild

who knows, maybe someday enough peeps will request claire at avex or something and itll make me bother to haul my ass outta the house and out to town to go to that again lol

this is why i try not to discuss "politics" in any setting until i get the vibes that someones on a similar page as me (not same, similar) bc the liberalism is strong in some folks and i cant bite my tongue and agree that i should treat open fascists the same as the people they target lmao

is it not too much to ask to find another nd baddie who doesnt really use any substances, wants to wife it up and have a kid, and shares like literally any interests with me besides women?? and in the st johns area??? i feel like that shouldnt be asking too much lmao

i feel like my hopes of wife-ing it up before i try to pop out a baby are slim, which is only gonna make that all the more fun... because everyone loves a single mom 🙄 and its not like 90% of the ppl i see on apps are vehemently anti kids lmao

thats the other thing - i think its a mix of my impatience for small talk/casualness in any type of relationship in my life and me knowing what i want long term despite literally never having any partner before - but i aint interested in dating around for the sake of it, i want a gf, i want a wife

there are so many layers to it that i like to think are at least somewhat reasonable concerns. and also like i dont wanna be a bad partner either because im struggling with shit but also im 2 years from 30 and havent been on a single date and i would like to not die alone...

drinks/smokes/does drugs" makes me apparently too high maintenance to be appealing to literally anyone evidently" and my newest fav of "am i ever gonna find someone who is chill w all of my fun lil audhdness and not find me a burdensome partner"... like my self esteem is always in the gutter, but-

this is whatcha get when its a one woman show by, a million tasks and not enough energy or time or money in the world