This saturn return is about to be something else

People are so used to me being quiet and letting things slide. Just speaking up for myself this year alone has really showed me that.

Yes, I want to eventually get to the quality of production I see for my art, but this really taught me to put in the work and everything else will follow.

For so long I thought I needed funds for all these resources to get back into filmmaking but really I had everything needed. I was the one really holding myself back, not money.

This year I made 2 films and worked on some marketing work and was able to piece together a solid portfolio. This year I received the grant.

And this isn't me promoting codependency. Trust me I'm doing the work, I have been for years. But it does feel good not to be doing it alone in this season.

The main thing is that I believe that he genuinely understands and sees me and I don't feel judged or like a bother. It's also the patience he has. This is new for me.

Full transparency, I've had a shitty weekend. I usually go through my lows by myself because I don't want to bother people with my problems or sometimes don't even fully understand the emotions I'm experiencing myself.

I wasn't expecting it to be that good and now it's on my list of favorites

I salute you! Having the right support helped me a lot