I miss having irl friends. I miss doing furry things. And I still forget what it’s like to enjoy a con for enjoyment sake. I wish people in places like Seattle and the Bay Area would truly stop and appreciate the privilege they have around there.

Isolation is a real bitch…

With the exception of my marriage, my life feels like it’s gone well downhill since the pandemic… I want to go back…

Some people really do have all the little things and don’t seem to know it… What did I do to not deserve even those little things?

Can’t stop feeling like something is wrong and/or missing for me the last few days. Starting to strongly suspect it’s dysphorias bubbling to the surface…

Bye week plans fell through so I get to be bored and miserable for half a week. Sports teams losing and getting injured left and right. Everything sucks.

It’s always depressing for me to scroll through my contacts list in my phone… so many people who I’ve lost or who left my life…

I am so broken

Feeling very alone and hopeless right now…

That moment when you’re definitely horny, But you’re too tired to take care of it

Hello dysphoria, my old friend…

Sometimes working for billionaires really blows… fuck this shit…

I miss learning things about my gryphon life… really any of the animal lives I’ve had… it’s been very stagnant for a long time and it makes me feel so lost… it would make me feel affirmed for what I really am like nothing else. But now I’m just back to human things and it sucks

Why am I so broken that I can’t put myself out there and make new friends? I’m so alone…

What the fuck am I even doing anymore?

It’s also been extremely hard to adjust to all the changes in the last year and a half - losing mom, dad moving away quickly, impending immigration to another country, there’s a lot that makes me feel like my life is so unstable in ways I never imagined

Feels like something is missing in my life tonight. Not sure what or why. I kind of feel like a disappointment too.

Been feeling very spiritually distant for a while. Coincidentally, the person that most connected me to my spirituality seems to have found other priorities than staying in touch with me, despite being allegedly “beloved” by them. Not the first time this has happened. Have to adjust my expectations