I hope he knows how incredibly much this means to me. How much he means to me. Hes truly changed me in the best way possible. He'll forever have a place in my heart I've never loved someone so so much.. I can't accept he's leaving. ☹️

I'm gonna ask him before hand if we can like make an appointment. I'll ask first before any of his colleagues tries to force him into some dumb meetings it's so unfair I barely see him im gonna miss him so much I'm gonna cry so bad indont want him to leave

Because he's barely at school , whenever he is all those other teachers who need to speak with him make appointments and meetings and he's constantly busy. If he's busy like thus and doenst have time for me on his last day I'm gonna be so devastated I'm already terrified

Ive only recently come to this whole realisation and now my every day i spend analysing memories and telling myself hes innocent which he really is but I'm still confused and its really upsetting me

Does he not understand that he has the power here being the adult? And that him being so close with me even though hes never crossed any real boundaries isn't good for my emotional state? I understand this isnt right but i just cant step back it's too late and hes leaving soon anyway

The guilt is driving me insane and im also already grieving him because he'll be gone very soon and i cant handle that at all im heartbroken i love him so much hes the only person at school who sees me and noticed me and cares for me. for the rest im invisible and when hes gone ill be alone again