Um. That's a lot of posts and I don't know how to end it. (Hehe, phrasing !)
I'm not sure sharing this will help anyone, but whatever. I mostly felt like putting something out there as, if anything, writing it down now might help me out later.

Okay, bye. Remember to bother your creatures.

Suicidality is not always a result of another crisis. It comes, and goes, yes, but it's also always there. Even in the very best moments of my life, it's trying to grab a little bit of my attention - but it often fails, because dying is not an interesting activity to look forward to.

I feel like killing myself, then. That's it. Almost always. It's not even tragic, or unbearable - I ignore it and go on with my life.

I wanted to get it off my chest, a little. Friends & relatives often seem to miss the point when it comes to understanding what I go through, although they sure try.

- quit while I'm ahead and still being myself ? So long, and thanks for all the shit, as it were ?
I don't know. I don't feel like indulging nor fighting it. It's just there, always. A constant presence that I'd rather do without but cannot banish from the corner of my mind it has made a den out of.

It's not a need resulting from overwhelming pain or distress as is usual (in my case, at least). Have I dipped below the safety net so many times that it has become my standard reaction to any new inconvenience ? Is it "simply" a result of living with long-term depression ? Is it a way to quit -

It's honestly baffling, when I actually make an effort to feel something about it. Right now, I'm doing fine : I'm well-rested, feeling happy about the general state of things, not in a whole lot of pain, and dysphoria seems to be taking a break.

I still want to die, though.

Knowing about what's inside an egg is yolklore

Amazing !! Love the clean photography, and most importantly, the tentacle handle. Very cool pattern on the mug too, it's just a very neat piece of work :>

The monsters are most appreciative too :>

Thank you based Lacri, for restoring my smile and optimism this evening

Aaah, this is what they mean by "playing it by ear", it all makes sense now

Cerebral
Frotting
Okay then adding that to the ever expanding list of "things I didn't know were neat"

Oh can't wait to get a larger glimpse at this handsome boy, excellent skull features right there

That is one cool creature, I love the loooong snout