Ain Soph in Kabbalah means “Without End”—the infinite, boundless Divine reality before any creation, form, or distinction. It is not a being among beings, nor a god with attributes, but absolute infinity itself, beyond thought, language, name, or will as we understand them.

Numbers on a screen are not walls against biology.

My first book in English written in 2019.

A book on Gnosticism which I wrote a couple of years ago.

A book I wrote with Julian Rees in 2017.

Reality is all we have. But it is enough, because it is unfathomable.

The pursuit of God takes us thtough different practices: prayers, rituals, meditation, breathwork. This is already a huge bonus, independently from the outcome of the pursuit in itself.

What is God? It is not salvation, or redemption or a set of unmovable dogmas. It is an answer to some big questions, primarily why are we here...

To seek God sincerely is to refuse lies, illusions, and postponement.
To seek truth now is to stand naked before reality.
Where that honesty is complete, God and truth are no longer separate.

To seek truth now is to allow reality to disclose itself without resistance—and that disclosure is what many call God.

God is not found by escaping the present moment but by penetrating it fully. Jesus speaks of the Kingdom “within you”; Moses encounters God as I AM; mystics speak of divine presence as immediacy itself.

In this sense, searching for God means: stripping away falsehood, self-deception, and ego stories and attending honestly to what is happening now—in thought, feeling, action
aligning oneself with what is real rather than what is comforting.

When God is understood as the ground of being, the source of consciousness, the “I AM” beneath experience, then the search turns inward and immediate.

Searching for God and searching for truth here and now converge because both are ultimately about direct encounter with reality as it is, not as we imagine it.