Untergang Des Alasters
@untrgngdesalstrs.bsky.social
Talons in Hand, can there be love between us?
Ursus, did you know?
I am your Alaster,
And you are my Downfall.
Here, you will find my photography among other thoughts.
Ursus, did you know?
I am your Alaster,
And you are my Downfall.
Here, you will find my photography among other thoughts.
The Sun only gives, but will one day consume all that we know in time. Will we be here when that comes? Or will we have been long gone? For now, we embrace ourselves in soft cloth to bask in its warmth.
Taken December 2024. #blackandwhite #blackandwhitephotography
Taken December 2024. #blackandwhite #blackandwhitephotography
January 26, 2026 at 2:41 AM
The Sun only gives, but will one day consume all that we know in time. Will we be here when that comes? Or will we have been long gone? For now, we embrace ourselves in soft cloth to bask in its warmth.
Taken December 2024. #blackandwhite #blackandwhitephotography
Taken December 2024. #blackandwhite #blackandwhitephotography
The Sun setting above the Castillo de San Marcos in St. Augustine, FL. Taken December 2024 #blackandwhite #blackandwhitephotography
January 26, 2026 at 2:34 AM
The Sun setting above the Castillo de San Marcos in St. Augustine, FL. Taken December 2024 #blackandwhite #blackandwhitephotography
Trees knocked over by winds and uprooted. Taken December 2024 #blackandwhite #blackandwhitephotography
January 26, 2026 at 2:29 AM
Trees knocked over by winds and uprooted. Taken December 2024 #blackandwhite #blackandwhitephotography
A porch in need of repair under the shade of trees. Taken December 2024. #blackandwhite #blackandwhitephotography
January 26, 2026 at 2:26 AM
A porch in need of repair under the shade of trees. Taken December 2024. #blackandwhite #blackandwhitephotography
I've realized that I'm trying too hard in many aspects of my life, that I take on worries that aren't mine to address and struggle against what I should be.
Soon, that will change. Soon, I will become not what I want to be, but what I truly am. Though, that is still veiled, whispering just beyond.
Soon, that will change. Soon, I will become not what I want to be, but what I truly am. Though, that is still veiled, whispering just beyond.
January 12, 2026 at 4:00 PM
I've realized that I'm trying too hard in many aspects of my life, that I take on worries that aren't mine to address and struggle against what I should be.
Soon, that will change. Soon, I will become not what I want to be, but what I truly am. Though, that is still veiled, whispering just beyond.
Soon, that will change. Soon, I will become not what I want to be, but what I truly am. Though, that is still veiled, whispering just beyond.
The loneliness epidemic exists solely because everyone wants to talk, but no one wants to actively listen.
Being present in a conversation is important. Thinking about a response while someone is mid-point; dissociating or focusing elsewhere; and trying to jump ahead are convo killers.
Being present in a conversation is important. Thinking about a response while someone is mid-point; dissociating or focusing elsewhere; and trying to jump ahead are convo killers.
December 7, 2025 at 5:30 PM
The loneliness epidemic exists solely because everyone wants to talk, but no one wants to actively listen.
Being present in a conversation is important. Thinking about a response while someone is mid-point; dissociating or focusing elsewhere; and trying to jump ahead are convo killers.
Being present in a conversation is important. Thinking about a response while someone is mid-point; dissociating or focusing elsewhere; and trying to jump ahead are convo killers.
Argument: The Elm Enchanted Forest (1986) is really about Thistle's coming out story and his fight to leave an abusive, narcissistic ex.
#lgbtq #gay #comingout #bear
#lgbtq #gay #comingout #bear
November 30, 2025 at 2:22 AM
Argument: The Elm Enchanted Forest (1986) is really about Thistle's coming out story and his fight to leave an abusive, narcissistic ex.
#lgbtq #gay #comingout #bear
#lgbtq #gay #comingout #bear
"Over countless worlds,
countless times,
Have I tred the abyss
To free you.
And in each, I've failed
To lift the veil
In futile attempts
To beseech you."
countless times,
Have I tred the abyss
To free you.
And in each, I've failed
To lift the veil
In futile attempts
To beseech you."
August 17, 2025 at 12:48 AM
"Over countless worlds,
countless times,
Have I tred the abyss
To free you.
And in each, I've failed
To lift the veil
In futile attempts
To beseech you."
countless times,
Have I tred the abyss
To free you.
And in each, I've failed
To lift the veil
In futile attempts
To beseech you."
Sometimes, it's hard to let go, even when what you're holding wants to fly away.
A hand letting go of a black balloon. Taken in October of 2021. #blackballoon #blackandwhite #blackandwhitephotography #photography
A hand letting go of a black balloon. Taken in October of 2021. #blackballoon #blackandwhite #blackandwhitephotography #photography
July 30, 2025 at 8:54 PM
Sometimes, it's hard to let go, even when what you're holding wants to fly away.
A hand letting go of a black balloon. Taken in October of 2021. #blackballoon #blackandwhite #blackandwhitephotography #photography
A hand letting go of a black balloon. Taken in October of 2021. #blackballoon #blackandwhite #blackandwhitephotography #photography
My problem in relationships is that I want to be chosen.
I want to know that, out of everyone else, I was the one who was wanted most.
Not needed, but *wanted* for who I am, just as I would choose that one person above all others.
But it seems that's pure fantasy: I am never enough.
I want to know that, out of everyone else, I was the one who was wanted most.
Not needed, but *wanted* for who I am, just as I would choose that one person above all others.
But it seems that's pure fantasy: I am never enough.
February 12, 2025 at 7:01 PM
My problem in relationships is that I want to be chosen.
I want to know that, out of everyone else, I was the one who was wanted most.
Not needed, but *wanted* for who I am, just as I would choose that one person above all others.
But it seems that's pure fantasy: I am never enough.
I want to know that, out of everyone else, I was the one who was wanted most.
Not needed, but *wanted* for who I am, just as I would choose that one person above all others.
But it seems that's pure fantasy: I am never enough.
Things I tell myself daily in a refrain:
1. No one will save you from yourself.
2. You have no purpose other than what you give yourself.
3. You are the source of your own tortures.
4. To live each day is an option, and whether you make that choice is up to you and you alone.
And still I fall.
1. No one will save you from yourself.
2. You have no purpose other than what you give yourself.
3. You are the source of your own tortures.
4. To live each day is an option, and whether you make that choice is up to you and you alone.
And still I fall.
December 15, 2024 at 5:17 PM
Things I tell myself daily in a refrain:
1. No one will save you from yourself.
2. You have no purpose other than what you give yourself.
3. You are the source of your own tortures.
4. To live each day is an option, and whether you make that choice is up to you and you alone.
And still I fall.
1. No one will save you from yourself.
2. You have no purpose other than what you give yourself.
3. You are the source of your own tortures.
4. To live each day is an option, and whether you make that choice is up to you and you alone.
And still I fall.
It never gets easier when you must make the choice to take away another's suffering.
Music credit: Bleedstone - witch Hunt.
Music credit: Bleedstone - witch Hunt.
November 20, 2024 at 4:16 PM
It never gets easier when you must make the choice to take away another's suffering.
Music credit: Bleedstone - witch Hunt.
Music credit: Bleedstone - witch Hunt.
A glass chessboard on a wodden table in the glow of a TV, taken in November 2024.
#blackandwhitephotography #chess #photography
#blackandwhitephotography #chess #photography
November 17, 2024 at 4:16 AM
A glass chessboard on a wodden table in the glow of a TV, taken in November 2024.
#blackandwhitephotography #chess #photography
#blackandwhitephotography #chess #photography
Thomas Harris said it very concisely.
November 7, 2024 at 5:00 PM
Thomas Harris said it very concisely.
Sometimes, while drinking alcohol, I ask myself: "Why are you hurting yourself?"
And I reply: "Because I'm numb and need to feel something in a world that does not notice."
And I reply: "Because I'm numb and need to feel something in a world that does not notice."
October 26, 2024 at 9:40 PM
Sometimes, while drinking alcohol, I ask myself: "Why are you hurting yourself?"
And I reply: "Because I'm numb and need to feel something in a world that does not notice."
And I reply: "Because I'm numb and need to feel something in a world that does not notice."
When in depression and hope is lost, ennui takes root, and one is indifferent to whether or not the world burns.
October 26, 2024 at 9:34 PM
When in depression and hope is lost, ennui takes root, and one is indifferent to whether or not the world burns.
Reviewing my childhood photos back when I had fallen in love with a T-Rex display.
A #T-Rex display, taken at a museum in #PananaCity, #Florida, in 1994. #blackandwhite #photography
A #T-Rex display, taken at a museum in #PananaCity, #Florida, in 1994. #blackandwhite #photography
July 25, 2024 at 1:13 AM
Reviewing my childhood photos back when I had fallen in love with a T-Rex display.
A #T-Rex display, taken at a museum in #PananaCity, #Florida, in 1994. #blackandwhite #photography
A #T-Rex display, taken at a museum in #PananaCity, #Florida, in 1994. #blackandwhite #photography
No thoughts.
The #slimefountain in front of #NickelodeonStudios at #UniversalStudios in #Orlando, #Florida. Taken in June of 1994. #blackandwhite #photography
The #slimefountain in front of #NickelodeonStudios at #UniversalStudios in #Orlando, #Florida. Taken in June of 1994. #blackandwhite #photography
July 21, 2024 at 5:18 PM
No thoughts.
The #slimefountain in front of #NickelodeonStudios at #UniversalStudios in #Orlando, #Florida. Taken in June of 1994. #blackandwhite #photography
The #slimefountain in front of #NickelodeonStudios at #UniversalStudios in #Orlando, #Florida. Taken in June of 1994. #blackandwhite #photography
That place of dreams, where all those shows were made that unlocked a world of imagination for me
The #Nickelodeon Studios building in its original form at #UniversalStudios, #Orlando, #Florida. Taken in June of 1994. #blackandwhite #photography
The #Nickelodeon Studios building in its original form at #UniversalStudios, #Orlando, #Florida. Taken in June of 1994. #blackandwhite #photography
July 19, 2024 at 2:13 AM
That place of dreams, where all those shows were made that unlocked a world of imagination for me
The #Nickelodeon Studios building in its original form at #UniversalStudios, #Orlando, #Florida. Taken in June of 1994. #blackandwhite #photography
The #Nickelodeon Studios building in its original form at #UniversalStudios, #Orlando, #Florida. Taken in June of 1994. #blackandwhite #photography
I was afraid to meet my favorite characters, yet I stood at the entrance hoping to meet them.
The entrance to #Nickelodeon #UniversalStudios at #Orlando, #Florida. Taken in June of 1994. #blackandwhite #photography
The entrance to #Nickelodeon #UniversalStudios at #Orlando, #Florida. Taken in June of 1994. #blackandwhite #photography
July 19, 2024 at 2:11 AM
I was afraid to meet my favorite characters, yet I stood at the entrance hoping to meet them.
The entrance to #Nickelodeon #UniversalStudios at #Orlando, #Florida. Taken in June of 1994. #blackandwhite #photography
The entrance to #Nickelodeon #UniversalStudios at #Orlando, #Florida. Taken in June of 1994. #blackandwhite #photography
An eternity ago, upon a time in the '90s, when I was happy, yet shy.
A merchandise stand at #Nickelodeon #UniversalStudios, #Orlando, #Florida. Taken in June of 1994. #blackandwhite #photography
A merchandise stand at #Nickelodeon #UniversalStudios, #Orlando, #Florida. Taken in June of 1994. #blackandwhite #photography
July 19, 2024 at 2:10 AM
An eternity ago, upon a time in the '90s, when I was happy, yet shy.
A merchandise stand at #Nickelodeon #UniversalStudios, #Orlando, #Florida. Taken in June of 1994. #blackandwhite #photography
A merchandise stand at #Nickelodeon #UniversalStudios, #Orlando, #Florida. Taken in June of 1994. #blackandwhite #photography
I'm afraid to lose what I have.
A hand contrasted with light from a foggy window, taken March of 2022. #blackandwhite #photography #hand
A hand contrasted with light from a foggy window, taken March of 2022. #blackandwhite #photography #hand
May 9, 2024 at 1:06 AM
I'm afraid to lose what I have.
A hand contrasted with light from a foggy window, taken March of 2022. #blackandwhite #photography #hand
A hand contrasted with light from a foggy window, taken March of 2022. #blackandwhite #photography #hand
I no longer find pleasure in the things I once liked.
An empty field in the country, taken in March of 2023. #blackandwhite #photography
An empty field in the country, taken in March of 2023. #blackandwhite #photography
May 6, 2024 at 5:01 PM
I no longer find pleasure in the things I once liked.
An empty field in the country, taken in March of 2023. #blackandwhite #photography
An empty field in the country, taken in March of 2023. #blackandwhite #photography
It's sad to realize that, even though I know better, I still almost expect something magical to happen
A walkway over an animal exhibit in the #JacksonvilleZoo, taken in October of 2023. #blackandwhite #photography
A walkway over an animal exhibit in the #JacksonvilleZoo, taken in October of 2023. #blackandwhite #photography
April 9, 2024 at 12:25 PM
It's sad to realize that, even though I know better, I still almost expect something magical to happen
A walkway over an animal exhibit in the #JacksonvilleZoo, taken in October of 2023. #blackandwhite #photography
A walkway over an animal exhibit in the #JacksonvilleZoo, taken in October of 2023. #blackandwhite #photography
People want me to listen. But, more often than not, they never want to listen in return.
A ping-pong table at an empty #bar just before opening. Taken at #Hoptinger Beirgarten in #Jacksonville, Florida, in April of 2023. #blackandwhite #photography
A ping-pong table at an empty #bar just before opening. Taken at #Hoptinger Beirgarten in #Jacksonville, Florida, in April of 2023. #blackandwhite #photography
April 3, 2024 at 1:47 PM
People want me to listen. But, more often than not, they never want to listen in return.
A ping-pong table at an empty #bar just before opening. Taken at #Hoptinger Beirgarten in #Jacksonville, Florida, in April of 2023. #blackandwhite #photography
A ping-pong table at an empty #bar just before opening. Taken at #Hoptinger Beirgarten in #Jacksonville, Florida, in April of 2023. #blackandwhite #photography