But I don't know, a part of me does feel someone similar might find solace in this possibly.

Anyhow, this is I guess a confessional entry that I'm gonna try to do things that feel stupid, because it likely isn't stupid. Live laugh love fellow artists

Even setting up commissions has some mental barrier of "this is a bit embarrassing, who would even?" and then being vulnerable has the barrier of "keep it to yourself, this isn't anyone's problem but yourself".

Been thinking of how held back I've been art wise, where just throwing myself out there feels shameful even if it isn't? The anxiety I've had for networking and finding mutuals really does suck but I'm working on getting comfortable with the discomfort.