i wish i was one of those ppl who just posts art with no caption and nothing else

dw len, clearing is an optimistic aim! but you're a v good player and i'm absolutely certain you'll be ready to clear VERY quickly too! are you able to make the sunday? if not, i'll do my best to find time to pf with you if you're up for it!! I STILL WANT TO RAID TGT!!!!!

thanks for encouragement!! 🥲💜 i want to post more, just deciding where and finding a bit of sense of purpose

thank u, i appreciate your respect for this kind of thing. ig it's on me to not feel like my absence means that i'm...losing friend points?? or smth lmgjgdhgf

i figured out one thing. the urge is for someone who can relate. sometimes there's only so much you can say with someone who has never experienced something alike. not having anyone near who truly empathizes makes the pain lonely. platitudes and sympathy from the wrong people seem to salt the wound.

it does feel like the bad thoughts bload up 4 no clear reason lately... brain chemical nonsense maybe. idrk what to ask for or what to do, but i hope that you're right and what i'm perceiving is just bad brain, cuz i also dont want to isolate and burn a perfectly good bridge 🫠

MY STATIC OFFICIALLY FILLED WITH ALL MEN. FUCK ☠️

hard to say, it could be just my perception?? schedule diff is tangible for sure. ik i don't rly banter/play the same way as everyone so i feel a bit outside of that? which happens like every day--i just dk how to respond is all. been told before that im cold n i don't want to be cold/absent to yall

it feels hard to ask for, but it helps to hear sometimes, so thank you!! ik you're going thru shit too; i notice & appreciate your effort to be a bright presence for others :'3 i'm thankful to you for welcoming me... i feel we've all changed a bit but i hope i havent alienated myself from everyone.

not me having a super realistic dream where my relatives told me im fat and made me put down snacks they had offered me???? i mean damn that's basically just a memory 🤨

i learned, or had it reiterated to me i guess, that some people don't have the internal voice that actually SAYS the words in your mind. god maybe having that 3D apple brain shit is actually a horrible curse cuz that voice destroys me daily