i stg every kink can be subtextually boiled down to:
-i am powerful/in control
-i am seen as desirable
-i am safe and can now be vulnerable
-i can explore taboo in a safe + controlled environment

once you realize that you realize that no kink can hurt you

I'm trying to break patterns and find a more sustainable path. But how?

Tbh I'm not sure what to do about it. I feel like if I don't talk about it, it'll burn my insides from being stuck in there

But if I don't talk about it in the right spaces.... then it'll just balloon and get worse.

And talking about it can also feed the obsession!