FUCK IT HONX TIME

Oh TRUST me... I can still do my best~

LMAOOO

Sorry for the random 1am vent. My brain has just been in the gutter for so long, that its hard to put into words how I feel. Thank you for all those that still stand by me and hang around. Love you all very much.

My DMs are always open to old friends who want to reconnect.

I'm not going anywhere, I will still keep streaming for as long as I possibly can holding out hope that some miracle might come along. I really hope in my heart that my day will finally come.

I really really wanted my dream to become a reality, but I know that all dreams cannot come true, I'm just fearful of the future knowing that for the rest of my life I will simply be a number in a system that is used to tick as many diversity boxes as possible.

But its just gotten to the point where I am fearful that most anyone I speak to or interact with has some form of ulterior motives for speaking to me. I honestly just want to be happy and to make friends and have a good time being my goofy self.

But time and time again have people abused my trust or walked all over me the moment where I am no longer seen as being useful to them. I really want to make genuine connections again and to be involved in friend circles again.

I have tried ever so hard to put myself out there, create unique streams and ideas, and uplift those around me and support them as best I can.

I apologise to people I haven't spoken to in a while, and people who I used to have really good friendships with, I do still very much love you, its just day to day its getting harder and harder to feel that I have a future here.

I have barely been checking socials or even going on twitch outside of streaming for the whole of 2025 as it just feels like a minefield of negativity as well as having to dodge stray bullets by seeing people who have caused me a ton of stress and anxiety.

Streaming has always been something that I have wanted to do for more years than I can imagine, but personally I don't think its feasible for me right now to put the rest of my life on hold for the CHANCE of making it big.

Every goblin should aspire to be like this