oh noooo now i gotta decide which of my many ideas i want to develop properly for this

(as an aside, would we be able to submit the same project to both this and t4t jam if they were to happen at the same time and both were applicable?)

...with the best of intentions. they were denied full information by the GIC in the same way i was. they did the best they could for me in a system set up to fail and harm me

for what it's worth, as somebody who had the same experience and both found it traumatising in itself and found it made me less able to defend myself from or recognise sexual violence in adulthood, i don't at all blame my own parents for it. they love me, and i know they were acting in good faith...

give me a glass of wine at a party and i will give you a minimum half hour ramble on forcemasc and why most of it is boring and bad

plus i think i have some interesting skills/tastes/niches that might play well! i love interesting cables, weird organic looking shapes, and i've done some knitting with leather

i really do find it bizarre. it's an umbrella term - do we get this mad about the term 'trans' or 'queer' for the same reason? if not, why 'transmasc' specifically? i get that it can be used in a degendering way on an individual level, but for communities/resources/etc i don't get it

to be clear i think we are mostly in agreement on this! just some differences in semantics

...(e.g. an 'easier' way to explore bisexuality, a way to temporarily 'access' subcultural queerness for queer men living heternormative lives, or simply something that's seen to make me more desperate than cis women and so easier to exploit, etc)

the flavour of it has varied depending on sexuality, but imo there is the running theme of expectation that my gender/transness is/means/symbolises/etc being whatever that cis man wants or needs it to in the moment

...to transmasc bodies yes, but i have felt still expected to be sexually available to cis men the whole way through my transition and i've had sexually violent experiences with cis men of all sexualities because of that entitlement in a way that doesn't seem to relate to how cis passing i looked

oh i'm 10 years on t, i've not been deniable as a manic pixie girl for a long time. i think you're right about it getting more hostile, but i'm not sure i agree i'd characterise that as being about 'sexual availability'. 'performing attractiveness' and general entitlement...

...are about us being a 'not-quite-man' who is available to cis men for sex (and can fit into basically any understanding one has of his sexuality). it's a different kind of unpersoning imo

hm, i'm not sure i would agree that transmascs are treated as 'sexually unavailable' to cishet men? reproductively unavailable yes (i think it's telling how much surgery anxiety focuses on the hysto), but i think the vast majority of depictions or narratives of transmasc sexuality...

i realise with horror i have become somebody with a lot of opinions on ttrpg mechanics

obv i dont have to deal with family issues (the people who'd have a problem with my wife being trans already disowned me lol), and i am more prepared for experiencing queerphobia than cishet men are. but it is a dynamic i think is often invisible to people not in it