huhu 🥹🥹🥹 thank you zaki!!!

for now i kinda... paused my drawing activity (?) idk... im not sure lmao

its not that theres anything wrong with me, i think the way the industry works just doesnt fit me... but well i need to figure out a better way forward, i dont have the answer yet but ill get there 😞😞😞

working on weekly comics has changed how i see my art, it made me overlook the details i care about, shifted the meaning behind what i create and took away the value i hold dear, without that value i feel empty... like ive lost who i am

like... maybe rushing comic deadlines just isnt for me anymore, forcing it has only made things harder and its okay to admit that... i know i can do more bcs my ideas havent gone anywhere, but trying to keep up with the pressure has made me lose sight of what i care about in my work 😞

(topik yang tak bisa aku singgung di igstory so im yapping about this on bsky)

im always a bit careful with those themes since i havent fully lived those experiences (plus i only realized im bi about 2 years ago, which is funny bcs ppl seemed to know before i did)

and a lot of my GL/BL comics end up on pause bcs im still figuring out lmao

sama aja sih berlaku ke semua hal (apa lagi kalo mau mengangkat soal kelompok rentan) kalau emang gak belong di komunitas tersebut, yaudah give the spotlight to them, not you.

ya lu stay in your lane aja... wkwk