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i have to break through ANOTHER barrier cause that's what college is for. i've got to optimize my reading flow i feel *so* STUPID AND IT SUCKS CUZ INTELLIGENCE AND LANGUAGE DON'T CORRELATE i just feel this way cuz i could be better but im not, might as well do it now then whatever

what sucks too is that i pick up on things that have little or no connection to the themes of the story. i have a bias towards reading for feeling over thought but the point of having readings is to strengthen your skill so what the hell. appreciation takes thought, i hate proving myself wrong but-

for rei's rum i'll make a minecraft vid with all my friends, then for my solo stuff on tunkkatt i'll maybe do something Yakuza related since those games have been creeping back into my life. might do a no damage run, idk! whatever i can do that will fulfill me ig :3

this is such a journey to me, I have to navigate through this rough patch with those close to me and my wisdom. I hope to find a conclusion I'm satisfied with and have it strengthen my resolve to preform and entertain