I've never felt alone like this. The abandonment I felt from my friends when I went through that experience feels like its own trauma. Friends that I considered my family.

It's hard to see a point to anything anymore.

The people who I loved most, & whom I thought loved me, did not care if I died. I have felt heartache since this happened. It has felt hard to talk to anyone at all. I have gone through long periods of isolation in my life, but always still felt connected to others.

I've lost that, and it hurts.

Relationships were something that gave my life a lot of meaning before. I believed in growing and healing with others.

I can no longer sustain that belief.

I do not know how to recover after discovering this malignant indifference.

I do not know how to recover from that.

Between 2023 & 2024, I also almost died several times. An abusive ex strangled me. The two people closest to me, & whom I thought I could trust, chose that time to focus on trying to secure romantic relationships with me while simultaneously letting me know that they did not want to help support me

I CURRENTLY HAVE TOO MANY BUT I AGREE