I have no idea how this relationship’s gonna go. But for the first time I actually love and respect someone enough to let them in. I’m not compromising. I’m not settling. I’m happy and relieved. I’m a little anxious, but I can communicate that and be reassured. It’s wild to want that.

I never dreamed that someone would fit the bill. So I got angry, and defensive. I got frustrated. I was upset. I felt like I had to put up walls to protect myself and never thought it could happen to me. I’m so glad I was proven wrong.

I didn’t think that anyone real was my type. I was always making allowances for behavior or appearance because I was thinking “well, nobody exists who would fit my standards, so I’m just gonna try and settle.”

Oops. I found someone. I’m shocked and rocked to my core.

I’m tired of people trying to make me do things or feel things or decide what to do with my life. I’m tired of people judging me and not letting me just do what I fucking want. I’m not hurting anyone. I’m just trying to exist.

Like I do not understand. And I HAVE a partner (albeit polyam so it’s not like…I’m not the nesting partner so whatever) but like…it’s not my forever plan. I’m just living in the moment, taking it day by day. But on my dating profile it does not say “looking for forever”. Because I never have.

I’m about to start book 3 pray 4 me

Someone literally ARGUED WITH ME about this. ABOUT MY LIFE. and had the audacity to go “do you not think you deserve one?” Bitch I know I deserve one but I don’t WANT. IT.

Ty 🥺🥺

Fuckin sick

Ayoooooo