Oh, and don't Vape 13k puffs every day for four years! It will sag and puff your face beyond recognition. I'm not happy that I ruined me— it is a betrayal. Nicotine is easily the MOST addictive "drug" I've used. The hardest to quit. So, 2026? I'm quitting. Save money, too.

I choose to be selfish and live for me in 2026. It isn't always bad to be "selfish" (this isn't me suddenly putting family out— it is me putting my needs first for once). I've neglected myself! I need some work done, sure. But I'm okay, otherwise.

AIP (Acute Intermittent Porphyria) is one of four conditions I inherited from my mother— because she couldn't leave well enough alone, now can she? Child abuse and forcing EDs on her kids wasn't enough. I want to heal from that and get my life started! No more crying over it.

Note: Vaping and drinking alcoholic drinks is a big "No-no" when you have AIP. It contributes to a host of issues (multiple organ failure and fast ageing, to name two). My liver is failing in general due to AIP. I wish it mattered four years ago, but my head wasn't thinking clearly 25y old.

▪︎ AN (ED) management— this is not a "relapse" (it is simply how it is).
▪︎ BFR consultation requires a little patience and time to sort out properly. I would prefer a contoured face because that's the vibe— and I miss my sharper features (don't vape or drink!). It will ruin your confidence, lol.

Anyway, I had my little vent and got my head cleared up with these ramblings.

I'll delete this later. I need a notebook or journal, lol.

All in all, fuck this dumb surveillance shit. It's useless to us— but a boon for those in power. And offline people don't care and act smug about it.

A triggering subject for me is eating disorders: there's no short supply for AN content on most platforms. I'm trying to recover from Anorexia Nervosa, but I see it normalised and celebrated by those who don't know any better. It is sad to see.
Don't harm yourself to "look better." Not worth it.

As for some people minding their business in the everyday grind (working and living their lives, not paying attention to political discourse): this isn't protecting under 18s on the Internet. It is to control people with burning you out. Teenagers are still going to get themselves hurt online.

The law doesn't address anything that's harmful to kids online, too. I read about how young people are exploited by apps with online gambling (betting on stupid shit or football/sports). So long the rich get richer. I'm tired of the government being like this— I know it's nothing new.

The youngest someone believed me to be was 15! No, I don't look 15 (I can believe my face gives off 20—23). But 15, dude? Yeah, a ROUGH 15-year-old who doesn't take care of themselves, maybe? I am so exhausted with the age verification shit. I'm paranoid enough as it is— I don't like this law.