Trick of the light
@trickofthelight.bsky.social
Former epidemiologist, writer, gamer, knitter and obsessed with my dog. Lots of TTRPGs. I like to make people sad over fictional characters for fun. 41, lesbian/kinky, disastrous, she/her.
I think I do a less organized method. If I'm having a really bad day, I usually try to find someone to give money to. I should try focusing that a little more.
November 19, 2025 at 3:16 PM
I think I do a less organized method. If I'm having a really bad day, I usually try to find someone to give money to. I should try focusing that a little more.
I really thought it was for a lot of years. And after a lot of therapy I've grudgingly accepted that it's not going to make the thoughts go away, it just gives me tools to decide wisely how to respond to them if at all.
November 19, 2025 at 2:54 PM
I really thought it was for a lot of years. And after a lot of therapy I've grudgingly accepted that it's not going to make the thoughts go away, it just gives me tools to decide wisely how to respond to them if at all.
Honestly this is my number one least favorite thing about mental illness.
I am a profoundly logical person. Knowing a thought is disordered should make it go away. :P
But that's just not how it works.
I am a profoundly logical person. Knowing a thought is disordered should make it go away. :P
But that's just not how it works.
November 19, 2025 at 2:49 PM
Honestly this is my number one least favorite thing about mental illness.
I am a profoundly logical person. Knowing a thought is disordered should make it go away. :P
But that's just not how it works.
I am a profoundly logical person. Knowing a thought is disordered should make it go away. :P
But that's just not how it works.
I would have fully lost my mind by now.
November 19, 2025 at 2:14 AM
I would have fully lost my mind by now.
It's rare to have a skull from that particular goat ... That's the only explanation I can come up with.
November 19, 2025 at 12:59 AM
It's rare to have a skull from that particular goat ... That's the only explanation I can come up with.
I wonder if they ever consider that if they keep up the "am baby" thing to shed responsibility for their actions, women might finally believe them and be like "Well, I don't date children."
Wait. Answered my own question. No, because most of THEM are fine with dating children. 🙄
Wait. Answered my own question. No, because most of THEM are fine with dating children. 🙄
November 18, 2025 at 3:03 PM
I wonder if they ever consider that if they keep up the "am baby" thing to shed responsibility for their actions, women might finally believe them and be like "Well, I don't date children."
Wait. Answered my own question. No, because most of THEM are fine with dating children. 🙄
Wait. Answered my own question. No, because most of THEM are fine with dating children. 🙄
... Shit. I'm going to have to stop calling my dog Bubba now.
November 14, 2025 at 2:54 PM
... Shit. I'm going to have to stop calling my dog Bubba now.
Also he seems to be doing pretty fucking fine to me, given what he did and that he isn't in jail.
November 14, 2025 at 2:40 PM
Also he seems to be doing pretty fucking fine to me, given what he did and that he isn't in jail.
Exactly.
So they take your money.
Then they give you back less and you're supposed to be grateful for the help.
So they take your money.
Then they give you back less and you're supposed to be grateful for the help.
November 12, 2025 at 7:33 PM
Exactly.
So they take your money.
Then they give you back less and you're supposed to be grateful for the help.
So they take your money.
Then they give you back less and you're supposed to be grateful for the help.
It's abso-fucking-lutely infuriating. A lot of things about the church make me angry, but that's in the top five for sure.
November 12, 2025 at 5:18 PM
It's abso-fucking-lutely infuriating. A lot of things about the church make me angry, but that's in the top five for sure.
This is even encouraged of children.
I started paying tithing as soon as I started getting an allowance. 10% of a few bucks. Sat down annually with the bishop to testify that that was 10% of my earnings from the time I was seven or eight years old.
I started paying tithing as soon as I started getting an allowance. 10% of a few bucks. Sat down annually with the bishop to testify that that was 10% of my earnings from the time I was seven or eight years old.
November 12, 2025 at 5:18 PM
This is even encouraged of children.
I started paying tithing as soon as I started getting an allowance. 10% of a few bucks. Sat down annually with the bishop to testify that that was 10% of my earnings from the time I was seven or eight years old.
I started paying tithing as soon as I started getting an allowance. 10% of a few bucks. Sat down annually with the bishop to testify that that was 10% of my earnings from the time I was seven or eight years old.
And the church has literally hundreds of billions. They don't need your $10, but they absolutely expect it from you even if it means your kids go hungry.
November 12, 2025 at 5:16 PM
And the church has literally hundreds of billions. They don't need your $10, but they absolutely expect it from you even if it means your kids go hungry.
Queue my endless frustration that the Mormon church gets credit for a bunch of service work, but also tells poor people to pay their 10% to the church first even if it means missing rent or not buying food.
November 12, 2025 at 5:09 PM
Queue my endless frustration that the Mormon church gets credit for a bunch of service work, but also tells poor people to pay their 10% to the church first even if it means missing rent or not buying food.
Yes! I hate that. There's a comfort food casserole I used to make quite often but I had to stop because suddenly I found I never actually wanted to eat it anymore.
November 9, 2025 at 9:11 PM
Yes! I hate that. There's a comfort food casserole I used to make quite often but I had to stop because suddenly I found I never actually wanted to eat it anymore.
And if people will stop fucking acting like that's already happened, maybe it won't.
November 9, 2025 at 12:06 AM
And if people will stop fucking acting like that's already happened, maybe it won't.
"he's not my first choice" should be reserved for when he's become the only choice.
November 9, 2025 at 12:06 AM
"he's not my first choice" should be reserved for when he's become the only choice.
I love Storygraph, but because I've been in a long dry period I didn't realize they had a page a day thing. I'll have to try it!
November 9, 2025 at 12:02 AM
I love Storygraph, but because I've been in a long dry period I didn't realize they had a page a day thing. I'll have to try it!
But with some audiobooks, I just can't follow what's happening.
Beyond that I rarely have an opinion about specific readers being good or bad.
But there are some audiobooks that are just really fucking good. Like World War Z.
Beyond that I rarely have an opinion about specific readers being good or bad.
But there are some audiobooks that are just really fucking good. Like World War Z.
November 9, 2025 at 12:01 AM
But with some audiobooks, I just can't follow what's happening.
Beyond that I rarely have an opinion about specific readers being good or bad.
But there are some audiobooks that are just really fucking good. Like World War Z.
Beyond that I rarely have an opinion about specific readers being good or bad.
But there are some audiobooks that are just really fucking good. Like World War Z.
I often joke that I have no discernible taste. Which is to my advantage, because it means I very rarely dislike something based on subjective qualities. If I don't like a book or a movie or something, it is almost always because it's objectively problematic or stunningly bad.
November 9, 2025 at 12:01 AM
I often joke that I have no discernible taste. Which is to my advantage, because it means I very rarely dislike something based on subjective qualities. If I don't like a book or a movie or something, it is almost always because it's objectively problematic or stunningly bad.
I have varied success with them and haven't figured out yet what differentiates between an audiobook that works really well for me and one that doesn't work at all.
There are some really good audiobooks though.
There are some really good audiobooks though.
November 8, 2025 at 11:08 PM
I have varied success with them and haven't figured out yet what differentiates between an audiobook that works really well for me and one that doesn't work at all.
There are some really good audiobooks though.
There are some really good audiobooks though.
I would absolutely love to read an analysis of what happened from a pilot.
November 8, 2025 at 10:08 PM
I would absolutely love to read an analysis of what happened from a pilot.
I just can't figure out why he decided to fly up higher ... Or to stay airborne at all instead of just turning things off. But I also do not know how easy it is to cut the engine. And I'm sure he was panicking, but I like to think that pilots should be pretty calm under pressure compared to me.
November 8, 2025 at 10:07 PM
I just can't figure out why he decided to fly up higher ... Or to stay airborne at all instead of just turning things off. But I also do not know how easy it is to cut the engine. And I'm sure he was panicking, but I like to think that pilots should be pretty calm under pressure compared to me.
One of the less pleasant jobs I had in the past involved reading autopsy reports, the majority of which were from car crashes or plane crashes.
It's made me a very careful driver who stays off highways unless I'm going a long distance.
It's made me a very careful driver who stays off highways unless I'm going a long distance.
November 8, 2025 at 10:02 PM
One of the less pleasant jobs I had in the past involved reading autopsy reports, the majority of which were from car crashes or plane crashes.
It's made me a very careful driver who stays off highways unless I'm going a long distance.
It's made me a very careful driver who stays off highways unless I'm going a long distance.